Im from Münster, I live in a smaller town on the countryside but go to the city often.
I will keep you updated, at the moment I am 23 days sober so I’m already out of the worst of the relapse. After my relapse at day 92 I had used nearly daily for 6 weeks with a 8 day pause between week 5 and 6. So now already more than 3 weeks sober shows me I really can do it and if I’d really wanted drugs I would’ve kept going. But no matter how many times I’ve relapsed I alway wanted sobriety more and that’s what I want to remember.
Rehab is possibly gonna take half a year though before I can get in .
Keep us updated on your journey too it helps reading your experience because it is so relatable
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I don’t think I ever made it to Munster, but Germany as a whole was great. I also found the people to be really friendly!
Congrats on the 23 days!!! Thats amazing 
i Can also relate to using drugs. Its been many years now however i understand how hard it was. I then used alcohol as the alternative thinking it was safer, but i was just replacing one bad habit with another.
Is it hard to get into rehabs over there? It’s a shame you have to wait that long, but it also sounds like youre really determined which is amazing! I love living in a small town like yourself, but it can also have it’s down falls. For me, everyone knows everyone, so I havent reached out for extra support as people gossip here and also the line of work I now do, it makes it even harder to admit to people Ive had a problem. I’ve taken on your advice though and started to read more online forums and going to start exercising today as much as my brain is telling me to be lazy 
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I’ve never met anyone, even virtually, from Tasmania. Welcome to TS! Glad you are here!
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I phoned my sponsee to congratulate him for 1 year sober. His wife told me he was out getting drunk. This taught me a lot about our illness.
I’ve never seen him since.
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Thank you! Where are you from?
I’m struggling to find much of a sober community here in Tasmania, so this site has been wonderful 
Oh that’s so heartbreaking to hear. I hope your sponsor finds his way again. I understand coming up to a milestone can play tricks on our brain. Its been a struggle lately for me, but connecting with people on here is keeping me strong! I hope this site has helped you as well 
The people on here have saved my life and that’s not an exaggeration. Different people at different times have said just the right thing to stop me picking up for the next 10 Minutes, I would like to think some of those people will read this and know who they are and some will never know the difference they have made to my life. Now as I’m nearer to 3 years than any other milestone I’ve learnt how important everyone is on here.
I hate to say it but if you can’t stay sober with a community like this then you ain’t listening, learning and doing. The most important part is the doing 
( when I say You I don’t mean YOU unless you can’t stay sober then I do mean you 
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That’s so refreshing to hear! I’m really grateful for this community as well. I have always struggled to reach out for support. I’m use to being the one to care for others and support them, so its taken a lot to reach out and ask for advice and support. I’ve been overwhelmed to see people I’ve never met reach out and share their stories and offer advice. So thank you for your words! Over the last couple of days my cravings have subsided and I know, its been because of people like yourself and everyone that has jumped into this chat. It truly is a supportive community
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Gossip will always be a thing, whenever I catch myself caring about other people talking, I try to stop caring about it. But I get that it’s hard if someone at your workplace knows it, it’s sad that addicts get treated like lesser beings often. I know in active addiction people don’t go to work or go to work under the influence but a recovering/recovered addict can work as much as anyone else. Yet the stigma and the idea that alcoholics and addicts can just stop is in many peoples heads. So I can totally understand that you cannot go to rehab because of it.
It’s a sign of wisdom, strength and consistency that you get sober even without anyone else supporting you in person! Luckily this forum is also a way of support, I’m thankful for it every day.
No it’s really easy to get into rehab I Germany, no one has to pay for it, it’s all paid by healthcare system, which everyone has to be in by law.
If I’d went into detox which lasts 10-14 days, and the physicians there think that I really struggle back home and will relapse likely, they can send me instantly into a rehab, that was the case for me once but I only lasted 4 days in that rehab because I took the first one I could get and I didn’t like it there and my intention was just detoxing, not rehab. I relapsed the day I got home. But as I have no remaining signs of drugs in my blood now, detox is not needed right now. And I chose a good rehab because of the big amount of art therapy, and lots of time for group and one on one therapy. So I can wait.
In my opinion every country should be like that: free rehab, free detox for everyone
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I’m in Kansas City smack in the middle of the USA.
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Wow I’m blown away that rehab is free! That is fantastic and i couldn’t agree more with it being free everywhere. Im glad you’ve done your research and have found one that provides a great service. Art therapy sounds amazing. I use epoxy resin as my outlet. Its something I took up once I got sober. I’ve also got some clay for my throw wheel, but havent tried it yet. I may have to get that out this weekend and give it a go 
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Oh wow Kansas City! I bet it’s pretty warm there right now. I only just saw on the news, America is both going through a heat wave and flooding. You guys get such extreme weather changes!
It’s called the “pink cloud effect”. When you feel so good being sober and how long you haven’t drank that your brain gets this “you been doing great! Now reward yourself” lol. I go through it also but ibhave my coping mechanisms that have helped me.
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Oh wow, that’s hectic!!! I hope it’s not an expensive clean up 
Thanks for naming it for me! I feel this will give me something to focus on and see it as a commonality
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How are you doing? Been a minute since you’ve checked in - hope you are doing well.
I’m not doing to well at all Jazzy.
It’s so kind of you to think of me. Tomorrow is the day I’ve set to start my sober journey again.
Ive felt really guilty in myself for this massive relapse.
My mum became completely bedridden nearly 2 months ago and I’ve become her primary carer. Its been a lot to deal with caring for both my mum and husband lately and i stupidly started drinking to deal with it all.
Today with are having a celebration of her life, with all her friends around.
So I’m resetting my time tonight and hoping i can get my life back on track.
I hope you’re doing well? Thank you for reaching out
Ah love - big hugs for you. Thank you for checking in – so good to hear from you.
We are here with you on your day 1. Sorry for all the extra stresses in your life at the moment.
I do hope that this time around you can also lean to some in real life support via meetings or a sponsor. Luckily this site if active day / night so someone is always here.
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Thanks Jazzy!
You’re an angel. Im half way through day 3 and starting to feel a lot better 
I hope things are going well on your end
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