Thank you so much for your reply, so much of what you described sounds really familiar. I’m sorry you’ve gone through this too
You know, you got me thinking about potential times when something changed, and the whole time I’ve been trying to find a physical reason for my massive decline in energy. I think I know roughly when it began now, and it’s not physical at all
I’ve finally given in, I will start counseling. I’m going to make an appointment. My mom died very suddenly in 2014, I had to be there night and day for my Dad. I was so afraid he would crack after losing her, I never even started to grieve properly. I’m fairly certain her death caused PTSD and I think I have grief disorder. Just when Dad was starting to look like he could cope, he found out he had stage 4 lung cancer. I took care of him and moved him in with me until he passed too. Both of my parents died at the age of 62, and I can tell you - I have a very poor outlook on life and my own life expectancy because of it.
Jenny, I’m glad your life has become more manageable now. You’re a lovely person, thank you for taking the time to reply to me. You’ve literally shined a big spot light on something I’ve missed for years. I’m very grateful
Oh wow, that is really tough. I think you must have huge amounts of grief still unprocessed as it all sounds so traumatic. I am so sorry you went through all of that.
I am really glad I was able to help in some ways. I hope you can find a way through all this and start to heal.
13th day sober. Major issue getting to sleep last night. Felt good at 7am but now noon my body says nap. I am so glad I have had the opportunity to experience a total chaotic sleep schedule all in the name of permanent sobriety but now is the time for a calm healthy sleep pattern to arise from the chaos.
I’ve been exhausted ever since maybe the second week after I quit 20 days ago. The first week my brain was so out of whack I had energy and couldn’t sleep. It was doing weird things. Now it’s like all I want to do is lay down. Simple things like going to the store wear me out mentally and physically.
Hopefully it’ll pass at some point. I guess this is what years of substance abuse does to you.
Agree! I believe we are feeling what happens to us when we eliminate substances running our life and thinking for us. Controlling one”s own actions and making decisions is a full time job and exhausting. Ha
I plan to just shut my eyes for only a few minutes as my chores will not get done without me.
I never thought about it like that. I’d always have a couple beers before cutting the grass. It made me say f it, let’s go get it done. The heat didn’t bother me, I didn’t care about much. I’d wave at neighbors I never talk to. Now it’s like, let me work up the energy to do this, and I hope no neighbors are outside.
I guess it takes time for the body to learn how to function again without a drink. Being tired and achy all the time is annoying.