Just a quick question.
I’ve hit 10 months and couldn’t be more proud and relieved seeing the last 5 months we have had in our lives- theyve been hell!?!
But over the last week (since last Thursday) I have felt so off ballance and without an anchor and like my whole personality has been wiped, and I was so distraught last Thursday and friday I just woke up and all day I was just so fearful and scared; I felt i had a blank personality:
What do I like? What don’t I like.
What do I want?
What do i wanna do?
Questioning My relationship!?
Questioning My work!?
I wanted to run out and away.
I dont know anything any more and I don’t know who I am or what I want or what the hell is going on.
It’s overwhelming.
I can imagine this must be what slowly slipping into dementia must feel like some days.
Did any of you ever have a sudden shift like this and will I calm down? Because right now I’m freaking out!! And its been a few times last week and the week before.
I also woke up from freakish dreams about running away and chasing a green parrot and catching and eating it and shit…now i dont do dream readings or believe in anything spiritual like that realing and meanins etc, but this one last night - - i just feel very uncomfortable and like my sanity is slowly falling apart around me, like im loosing my mind.
Help!?
