Idk how this is supposed to work, with me sober and him still drinkin. Nothin really happened, we just cant communicate anythin to eachother and I feel like he’s never gonna get how I’m feelin and we’re gonna lose everythin again and have to start over! Really startin to think I’m just meant to be alone 
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I’m so sorry your feeling this way. I don’t really have any advice for you , but I understand that feeling of thinking your ment to be alone. It’s heartbreaking and it makes you feel so isolated and it’s scary. When I feel this way I journal. It sometimes help, but the feelings come back. I know it hurts and I’m so so sorry you are experiencing this.
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I KNOW how you feel. I tried to quit many times by myself. Finally we decided to quit together. We’re 10 months sober but it has been a challenge… gently keep asking or challenging for support. Get at least one sober friend. Get stubborn and as angry as hell at your addiction… you can do this with them or without them but you can do it … it would be great if they did it with you
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Remember the only thing we have any control over is ourselves, we’re not in a position to judge others especially where addiction is concerned. Keep doing your thing and lead by example. We carried the weight of the world on our shoulders whilst drinking and now in sobriety we can finally take a step back bc the world and all the people in it can do whatever they want, all we gotta do is not pick up one drink.
Be supportive when the time is right, be sober and be patient.
Congratulations on your sobriety BTW 
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Welcome to the community 
How are things today?
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I certainly understand this! It’s so hard when one of you stops and the other continues. I remember that my ex-husband would barely drink when I was drinking. For some reason, he would start up immediately whenever I tried to quit. Then shamed me when I failed. It got to the point where I really needed to separate my drinking connection with him. I was sober for about 10 or 11 months when I left him.
Like you, I felt unheard. I felt alone. It’s actually what made me finally leave (he was abusive). I lived in the same house with this person, yet I felt unheard, invisible, and lonely. In the years that followed, I learned to love myself. For the first time in my life I have zero desire to be in a relationship. Why? I lived my life for others for so long, I forgot who I was and what I love. I’m over here following ALL the dreams I gave up when I got married.
Not knocking marriage at all, knocking my behavior of neglecting myself while married.
Give yourself some time to get to know you again and relearn what you love and makes you tick. This is a beautiful and pivotal time in your life. Welcome! Congrats on your decision to get sober xx
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You’re all so great, thank you for takin the time out of your days to listen. Today’s been better, felt alot better just lettin it out. I’m definitely tryin to figure out who I am, alcohol wasnt necessarily the problem. Weed is the big one for me but I would do anything to not feel anythin at all so it was a pop and cant stop sorta deal. I truly appreciate any advice. Idk what its like to be a sober person ever since I can remember, includin bein a mother. Here’s to a new adventure!
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I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. This is always part of my downfall too. I do great and then my husband continues to drink around me, friends pressure me to drink and before you know it I have something else to feel ashamed about. Stay strong! This time around I’m not letting the temptation beat me. There’s too much goodness to be found in life itself that we don’t need to be intoxicated and miss it all 
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