Here I am again. Feeling horrible after 5 day bender. Had to call out of work today. I’m running out of excuses. I get so anxious that it makes me incapable of showing my face to people. I was doing really good on a new diet and no alcohol for almost 2 weeks. I am saying to myself I have to be done, I don’t think I have many more chances to heal my body and rid myself of this. I get such bad health anxiety and can’t tell if I need to seek medical help or if I am just overthinking. This is horrible and a place I know to well , I’ve been here so many times. I ordered a 12 step work book. I don’t know if I need to take time off work to heal and kick this horrible habit. Feel bad to just complain when I made the bed I’m laying in now. Ugh I am not someone I’m proud of at the moment. I need to heal my body and have had to go to the ER twice in the last year for alcohol related pain. I want to live a long healthy life and I’m afraid to do any more damage to myself.
Why dont you go to seek medical help? For the first mont my my doctor prescribed me medication for anxiety, and it worked very well… it calmed me down and helped me through the process ont these early days.
Also is a good idea to avoid parties and events on the first days… it took me 2 months to go out, again, after decided to get sober!
Hope you find peace and a new begining!
Thank you , I need to make a plan and work on recovery 
more than just trying to abstain but to heal myself.
It’s scary that I know my health is compromised, it’s a ticking time bomb. Yet I still drink. It’s the definition of insanity.
I should seek medical help , I have been so avoidant of it because it scares me.
I have diagnosed severe anxiety. It’s horrible. Up until recently I drank to overcome it. At the time it works but next day the anxiety is much worse. I’m off work at the moment because of it. It’s just impossible for me to go in right now. Have big panic attacks just thinking about it. I have meds and they work to an extent. See a doctor. If you have it you can get help if not it will ease your mind a little.