Yap and Life is a bitch too (from time to time)
Very glad to read you here, I just worried last days where you are, as I didn’t read your posts in daily checkin.
Its all not that easy…
And it’s all a process…
Not a final goal that we reach one day…
It’s a process and baby steps of changing and developing.
I was very much into challenges and goals and just heard a podcast last week, where 2 girls being affected with eating disorders recommended to take more care about balance.
Maybe you can try to c the things you want to change as an act of selflove and take care of yourself as you would do it for a good friend or a guest in your life. And not like pushing your self always to the limit and tick things off the to-do list.
Life is in the present moment. And sometimes the present moment feels like shit.
Glad that you are here and happy to read about your further way 
