Feeling suicidal

I haven’t slept in days, going without sleep and being schizophrenic isn’t safe. I’ve been very angry and violent lately. I want a drink to numb it all away. I want the voices to leave me alone. I just don’t want to keep going anymore.

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Are you managing with your doctor?

Yes I am and I take me meds everyday like I’m suppose to but lately sleep has been a problem

Have you brought that up with your doc? Natural remedies? Melatonin, Valerian Root Tea, Kava?

I use to be on sleeping medication but he took it away because of my liver. I’ve tried natural sleeping remedies but they are just not strong enough.

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You’ve tried all of those? Incorporating meditation prior to sleep can be helpful. Limiting screen time and activities that require lots of thinking. Calming scents like lavender. Sleeping with optimal temperature and lighting. White noise or silence.

Just being a soundboard for ideas. Definitely not that kind of doctor.

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Are you safe?

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Yes I’m safe just having a hard time with my schizophrenia

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Hang in there buddy. The permanent solution for a temporary problem is never a good plan, and I’m pretty sure you know it. Glad you came here to talk about it.

My first suggestion would be to stop drinking energy drinks altogether. Aside from that @DungeonMaster had some good suggestions. No electronics in the bed room at all. Don’t hang out in the bedroom until you try to go to sleep. Keep it clean and tidy. If you try to sleep and can’t, put on your shoes and put some headphones in and go on a predetermined length of time walk.

You’ve maneuvered your way through many obstacles and this is just another thing to navigate.

Message me anytime friend.

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@Longhorn Lack of sleep is my biggest trigger too. I’ve set blue light filters on all of my electronics. I put lavender oil on the bottoms of my feet, I have a qick bedtime yoga routine, I’ve given up ALL caffeine after 7am. I try to get some physical activity in each day, even if that just means parking far away and walking further from the car. Swimming really helps me too. I often put on a science or history documentary with monotone narrators on the lowest volume so they are hard to hear, or golf… anything that’s white noise. Then if all that doesn’t work I try to think about my day in as much detail as I can in reverse and see how far back in my day I can get without missing anything.

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@Longhorn reading a book your not terribly interested in helps as well. I can pick up my theoretical physics text book and fall asleep within min. Do you have a friend who knows what your going through that you can reach out to? Sometimes if my husband is out of town I call my brother to come sleep in my guest room just to alleviate the loneliness/ isolation/ and stigma that people with mental health issues struggle with.

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I’m probably pushing myself there it’s never been so heavy on my heart as it is now

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You could also try calling Samaritans if you need someone to talk to. I know people who have used them in the UK and found them helpful.

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Tylenol PM helps me - not sure if it is better on the liver, but it might be worth a try, if your doctor approves. It’s a combo pain reliever and antihistamine. Even if that doesn’t interest you, please do reach out to your doctor.

I struggle with sleep too, which negatively affects my mental health and increases symptoms of suicidal ideation. Sometimes, all the great suggestions above don’t work for me either. :confused: in those times, I find it really important to actively remind myself that my emotional state is highly influenced by my sleep deprivation, and that the feelings will pass whenever I finally sleep.

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Maybe try a guided audio meditation before bed? They out me out every time.

My other thought is over the counter Unisom. Not a long term solution, but it may break the cycle of insomnia.

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All good things already have been said, I only can send you some good vibes over there.
Please take care friend

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it is very scary to feel that way. I am quitting pop/caffiene. Youre welcome to join me. I listen to harry potter on audible every night to fall asleep. Jim Dale has a very calm voice in all of his characters. I listen to the story because I have it memorized and it keeps my mind from wandering. try talking to your doctor to see if he can help you find an alternative. I’m sorry you are hurting

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Hey, you ok today?? Please go to the hospital and let them try to help you. One of my good friends sister comitted suicide in his yard on Tuesday, I was with him all day yesterday trying to help him work thru it so he doesn’t follow in her footsteps. I’m so sorry you are going thru this, please please please don’t try to battle those thoughts on your own. Hugs friend, I’m praying for you and sending you love-I hope you can feel it.

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Btw, Jim Dale did a phenomenal job on the Harry Potter Series. I’ve listened to the first 3 books on my runs.

Thanks everyone for your advice and concerns. My dad ended up taking away my phone and laptop thinking that was keeping me awake from sleep. I ended up working on the farm all night so my mind wouldn’t go somewhere else. Being schizophrenic is difficult and trying to maintain a sobriety. But I am trying to move forward and stay strong!

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