3rd offence. Having mad anxiety and feeling so disappointed in myself.
I did 102 days alcohol free in 2021. Been really emotional lately and have been turning to substances again.
Work is good, and can function without my licence, even for a matter of years. That’s the only thing keeping me from be swallowed by own guilt, remorse, self pity and shame.
I have kids. A beautiful partner. A business partner. Friends … Everyone is going to suffer for my choices, I’m just thankful, and feeling blessed that, once again, no one was hurt.
I have bpd and PTSD. I feel like for so long I have been out of contol of my own physical and emotional self. I’m a 33 year old male. I behave like an 18 year old. It’s a disgrace.
Going to really give it a go this time. Society, my family and work all deserve better. I am sorry.
Hey there. I’m sorry you are going through this hard time. My brother has struggled with BPD and PTSD for a long time. He had to work hard to overcome his opiate problem that evolved due to his mental and physical pain from injury. He still struggles with his mental health but has finally found a therapist that works well with him. I hope you can find real mental health support for your diagnosis and that this can help you with sobriety. You deserve to have peace and health and safety too. Take care of yourself and know that we are here to help you too. I wish you peace.
I’m so proud of you for being here and reaching out for support. You deserve the best for yourself in your health and life and that taking care of yourself will overflow to those around you. You deserve beautiful health, peace, clarity, healing and love. Learning as much as you can about addiction and the dual diagnosis can really help to bring awareness to wanting to say no to the substances. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this. I’m sending so much love and healing energy.
When I had my one and only DUI accident and reached out for help, I was told to attend 90 AA meetings in 90 days. If I wasn’t satisfied at the end of those 90 days, they’d gladly refund my misery. Well, guess what? It was one of the best decisions I made. Working my program to the best of my ability daily has completely turned my life around. The obsession has been lifted and I’ve made some amazing life long friendships.
