Ive been good this year. Not drank. Got hammered last night. Blackout drunk. I’m ashamed. Really frightened though. What I could do when I out of control. Can’t let it happen again
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Good!
Thats a healthy fear.
You’re lucky you made it back.
Now.
Welcome 
I’m glad you found us.
You can get a lot of support here if you are willing.
Willing to do the work. And willing to have an open mind to learn from others that have been where you are now, and don’t drink.
Have a good read around.
Join in when you’re comfortable.
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@Agadoo Welcome to community
It can happen to relapse to any of us and its always important not to give up and try to stay sober.
Good luck in your path and if you need any assistance and support we are here 
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ill be the 1st to say it but probably not the last
you should consider going to AA meetings
you’ll probably be say you don’t want to but if you really want to stop drinking and stay stopped, those guys know how to do it.
the solution’s there if you want it, or you can keep trying to do it your way.
here’s a link:
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Welcome! There is a lot of good information and support here. The time you had is not lost. Good nothing seriously bad happened. Waking up not remembering the night before is very scary. But if you don’t pick up today there no worries about that tonight then wake up and commit to it again to not drink for the day.
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Welcome. If you want it badly enough, and put in the work, this can be the last time you feel like this. It may feel impossible, but many of us were right where you are now, and managed to remove alcohol from our life completely.
What’s YOUR plan?
The above is a great thread they outlined the process.
We are here to support. 
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hopefully not what your plans on this
Welcome to the community. I am so sorry about your scary relapse. I am grateful that it did feel scary and out of control so that you can easily find your way back to day 1.
That’s impressive! You already have a good foundation. This community is a wonderful space for connecting with others dealing with similar struggles and getting great advice and support.
Great attitude! Make a plan and work on your recovery. We are stronger together so make sure to stay connected with your support system.
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Welcome to the forum! Im sorry to hear abour ur relapse 
Have u had the chance to look back and see where things went wrong?
Relapses can be useful information if we allow them to be. They can teach us what we need to do for the future. If uv had some time in sobriety prior to ur relapse, do u think getting complacent had something to do with it? I found that to be the case for myself when i relapsed after 3 years. I wasnt doing my usual recovery things anymore and wasnt prepared.
Hopefully this forum can be a big support for u, just like it has been for me 
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