Ive veen so good for so long but last night idk what happen. I thought i could have a single beer at a birthday party and 5 hours later im vomiting all night long and i just woke up so ashamed. So back at day 1
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Jordan, I’m glad you are safely back. The risks you take with each return to drinking just get higher and deeper.
What is it that you haven’t done in the past to grow yourself a strong sobriety? What do you need to do now?
Blessings on your house 
as you continue your journey.
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It’s good to see you back, friend. You sound like you’re ready to make some changes and we are here to support you. You just have to keep showing up - spend some time reading around again and participating here. It is what made the difference for me. None of us can do this alone and we don’t have to, that’s the beauty of this community! Hope to see you around and as you know already, my inbox is always open. Sending you lots of love.
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Glad you made it back. The light is always on here. Next time, maybe pop on here 1st, and check in…we can help you thru. 
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You know what happened. You picked up. At what point before ordering that beer did you think you could manage drinking again?
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The “just one” argument is such a persuasive one. I framed it like, if I am struggling about the first drink, then how much more will I struggle once I have a drink inside me? Refusing the first drink is easy compared to refusing the second, and I want to do what is easy.
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I’ve been here and I’ve done this. You can’t drink for 5 hours if you don’t have that first drink. How can you avoid that first one, because we both know that one is never just one. I hope you try again. You’ll get it. 
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Thank you all for the love sorry for the late reply ive been sick and still feel horrible but im stickingbwith this and will be strong
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I remember my first relapse. I was leaving Germany with 9 months sobriety. To celebrate, my drinking friends came over and we partied. I had two days to sober up and leave i was so ashamed. But I’m still here.
I love that, refusing the first is the only unaltered decision. Past that the battle grows
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