That’s amazing nothing lasts forever even thou at the time it feels like it will today friend your post has given me hope Thankyou and good on you keeping working on your self. Xx
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Hey and I unfortunately slipped and picked up again but yes I have narcan and I always keep it close to me just in case ,and I’ve been having a lot of trouble staying sober so I’ve just been sober for maybe 10 hours tops till I pickup again ,like sometimes the reason I’m sober is because I ran out and dont have money so I dont know if I would call it being sober
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My family, I want to take care of them and make sure they’re safe and financially stable.
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Dan couldnt have said it better. Fent is a horrible drug, i know inpatiant isnt ideal, not gonnan lie to you it sucks, but its so worth it, your worth it. Do you mind if i ask where you live? Some states here in the US have free state run detoxs and they will still give you maintenance drugs to help you through the withdrawals.
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I live in Bakersfield CA
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Can you go to detox? I’ve kicked heroin cold…no fun. Im sure the synthetics are worse. Stay hydrated…there’s something very humbling about shitting your pants. Use this pain to push through it this last time and then be done. For me the no sleep part was the worst and the shitting and puking. It will pass. As hard as it was…moving around helped…walking…getting outside etc. It took me about a month before I felt somewhat normal. Hang in there and look into a medical detox of you can.
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Are there any state run facilities that will sign you up dor medicade? If you dont have an income its free and usually medicade pays for the entire detox at a state run facility.
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These guys have scholarships and will fly you there and back.
These guys helped me get a scholarship into detox.
More scholarships
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no that’s called being dope sick because you ran out
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You should definitly look into those detox centers, its not gonna be fun, but it wont be as bad as you think and they will help you with medication. Its tough to make that phone call and commit to going, but if you really want to get clean and stay clean and get your life back, i honestly beleive thats probably your best option. If you absolutly cant stand it you can always leave. Its not jail, they cant keep you against your will. But i would suggest giving it a try and putting everything you have into it. Whats the worst that could happen?
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Thank you so much I will definitely put this into consideration. And what’s a HA meeting ?
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HA is heroin anonymous, theres also NA or narcotics anonymous
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I tried to quit cold turkey for a whole week. Eventually I gained my appetite back, I could stretch again, basically I gained all my energy back. It was the mental part that was hard. I continuously had to tell myself, I’m fine, I got this, I don’t need those pills. It was a continuous self-affirming, positive attitude I had to maintain. Thing is, doing it by myself was the hardest part and I relapsed. The best advice I can give, if you really want to quit, I know this awesome rehab. I just got out last Thursday and I feel great !! I have all the tools and paperwork they gave me still and by far the choice I made. I hope this helps you but at the end of the day, remember what you want, how bad you want to quit, how bad you want your life back. You aren’t alone. I felt like I was alone but I wasn’t. The best way to do this is to think of all the loved ones you have (if any) and remember why you want to stay sober. It doesn’t matter who you were yesterday, it matters on what you do today that can help you lead a better future. Stay strong man 
you CAN do this.
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Honestly this is the best way i can describe it too. i’ve never wanted anything more in my life than to get sober and get my life together. Now i’ve been sober for almost a month and i’ve never been happier. Instead of wanting to do drugs, I want to better my life. I WANT to put my everything into my future that i know i’ll have. Especially because i’m not relying on anything other than myself to get me through things. I don’t NEED something to be able to function for the day and that feeling is something i can’t even describe. You should be so proud of yourself no matter what stage you’re at because YOURE DOING IT and that’s all that matters. You are taking control of yourself and your life again. Whether you decide to go to a medical detox or quit cold turkey (very dangerous and don’t recommend) but that’s what i did and it took me a week of just laying in bed and eating and sleeping and drinking a shit ton of water and thinking i was dying. BUT I think about day 7 I took half a suboxone and after that i’ve been pretty great. (i still take 1/2s of suboxone every now and again it really helps) Day 25 now and I have almost all my energy back again, my sleeping has improved and i haven’t had a random withdraw symptom for about a week and a half now? anyways. it’s hard but if you have the right mindset about it, you can take your sobriety and do AMAZING things with it. 100% love the sober version of myself more than any way i’ve ever loved myself before. i will say it’s different for every person but sobriety is awesome. i would take this life over the one i was living on drugs any day. if anyone ever needs to talk feel free to message me! i’m always here to help and thank you to everyone who helped me get through it. Love this app and all of you. best wishes 
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I’m so happy to hear about your progress @darkathleen 
you’re amazing and you deserve every ounce of happiness that you’re experiencing. My mother is also in recovery from opiates, her drug of choice being heroine. And I just love to root for anyone that has the courage to put any kind of opioid down for a better life. I have been watching this post hoping you made it through that first week and I am so happy that I got to read your comment from yesterday 
. Have you treated yourself for all your hard work yet?
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i’m going to today 
thank you for all the support. it’s nice to know people are here and willing to listen. i’m sorry about your mom, i hope she’s doing okay and well
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what form of fentanyl imndoing fake opiods probably laced with fentanyl bit they are way weaker than real roxies and im hoping to use them to wran off opiates. I had my first real bojt of withdrawals and it was one of the worst experiences of my life.
My mama has 2 years off heroine. She’s now living with my sister and goes to the suboxone clinic each week instead of shooting up. Shes active in a local church and women’s Bible study. I am so proud of her.
What did you spoil yourself with?
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