I finally made it! I’m actually on day 32, no alcohol. I’m super proud of myself. But I have this little voice in my head saying “you can moderate it’s fine you don’t actually have a problem” and I know that’s not true. I can’t moderate and that’s why I’m here. Also didn’t help that I had a dream last night that I drank alcohol. And my co-worker telling me that I’m not a “real alcoholic” because at work functions I would stop drinking so that I could drive home. I said that everyone has different problems with alcoholism and it strikes people in different forms. Idk just annoying. And now my mind is all jumbled.
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Amazing work on 32days no alcohol.
I cant moderate either. Never could.
I hate drinking dreams. I either wake up nourvous i drank or i start to crave.
And as for your coworker
The alcoholic term evolved a bit in my opinon. You can be a functioning alcoholic or not hit a terrible rock bottom.
The point is to stay away from alcohol so we dont hit that terrible rock bottom
Good work on 32 days 
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Congrats on 32 days. Stay strong against your alcoholic thoughts. I have noticed recently my head has been telling me I can skip AA today and I need a rest from the gym. Nope I won’t listen. On my way to AA and gym scheduled for later. I WIN and so can you. . I am few days from 6 months.
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I totally understand. My brain convinced me yesterday I didn’t need to go for a run. But today I won’t let that happen. Early Congrats on 6months!!
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I quit last year and convinced myself I could moderate, and I did… for a few days.
10 months later after horrific binge drinking, I hit rock bottom and decide to sober up again.
I fear I don’t have another recovery in me.
So don’t listen to that voice that you can moderate. It’s not worth it.
Life is better without alcohol.
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Good for you. 
I too am no stranger to dreams in which I am drinking, even after 600+ days sobriety. What I have discovered is that they seem to be more frequent when I am going through periods of higher stress/emotions. It’s annoying and stressful, you definitely do not wake up rested. Sorry you’re having to go through this BUT massive congratulations on your 30 days! 
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Congratulations on 32 Days!! I’m happy for you!
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Youll get stronger as the days go by…I drank a pint a night for over 10 years and i gave it up 11 months ago! My marital life is stronger,my life with God is stronger, im healthier, better looking, blood pressure is perfect, job is great …Wayyyyy too many benefits sober vs a drunken life-style. Alcohol is a snake and it will stab you in the back! Look at its reputation and history! You can be like the rest of us! Dont do it
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Congrats!! . And for for what it’s worth, I too here that littl voice 
. But I absoF’inglutely can not moderate 
. I just joined here cause I need the daily reminder
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Congrats on 32 days. I did my first 30 days and celebrated with a drink bc hey i did it. Well my drinking got worse and worse and worse til i hit my desperate bottom. Learn from my mistake. Youve made it this far keep progressing sober one day at a time
Dont listen to the lies the addiction feeds you
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Seconding all of this, as i could have practically wrote it. Real talk fr. 
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I’m saving this 🩷
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Been there, done that, got the t-shirt 
Congratulations with the 30 days! 
Very recognizable story, glad the both of us changed the outcome of it.
Let’s both keep it that way 
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