Im new here sober 120 days and I felt compelled to share a piece of my shame. I was a raging alcoholic for the past 6 years struggling to cope with the grief of my mother passing away. Long story short I got pregnant by a friend of mine one night after a black out. He already knew that I black out all the time and don’t remember anything the next day. Needless to say I blacked out one night and the next day I asked him if we had sex and he said yes. So i asked him if we used protection and he said yes. A little over a month later i found out i was pregnant. I was so angry i wanted to kill him. He admitted to coming inside me twice. My daughter turned 2 years old a few months ago. I cannot forgive myselr for making such a big mistake because of being an alcoholic my drinking on top of that i still have so much anger towards him because of the sneaky way he got me pregnant. I just want to let go of this hurt & anger
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An unwanted pregnancy is not easy and it wasn’t right for your friend to lie about what really happened. Look at the positive now though. You have a beautiful 2 year old that loves you. Put all your energy into her. Our children are only little for so long and need us. Find fun things to do with her that you will enjoy as well. Hope you can forgive and move forward 
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Im agreed to @TheRealLife u do got something wonderfull in your life, a daughter. Thats Worth try staying sober for and yourself.
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