Anyone free from heroin? I was clean a whole 12 years I relapsed n was a secret heroin addict again for 3 years . Still worked am married with children etc lived a “normal” life pretty much money was pretty much always there but killed me that I wasted our hard earned cash on that stuff. Decided to get clean once and for all that or loose my husband who has never done drugs before doesn’t even drink! I did 10 days and relapsed for 2 days that day he nearly left and I mean almost left… so now am on day 22 again and i can not relapse this time im determined. We’re getting on so well I feel great my sleep pattern is getting better but the niggles in my head am still fighting every day
Please tell me this gets better. I can’t really remember back 12 years ago all I know is over the years it never crossed my mind . It all went back down hill when we bought an house near to my old life! Big mistake… but am determined am not selling my beautiful forever home . Drugs are everywhere I need to learn to deal with it no matter where we live . Not saying that’s not easy some days I see people n feel for them some days I’m disgusted some days I wanna walk right upto them but I don’t. I just hope the "shall I " voice in my head slowly dissapears
I’ve been clean off heroin for 396 days and it does get easier. However, I had to do things radically different than what I was used to. I moved far from where I’d been using for the past few years, I got over my ego about going to AA/NA, I work the 12 steps to the best of my ability, I have a sponsor and I am brutally honest in all areas of my life. This may sound like alot but think about how far you were willing to go to get your drugs and maintain your secret. For me this new way of life is the only way. If you are serious about staying clean I suggest you get to a meeting.
Moving…although we did speak about selling up at ome point isn’t an option kids schools college important years etc then both our work places are local.
I really need to learn to live, as no matter where I go am sure drugs are all around . I don’t know of any meetings local and I’d also find that difficult as you could guarantee I would know someone. My husband and my mom are really so supportive. My sister in law knows my “secret” we are very close and she’s been a massive help too both side of our family’s are decent people never been on drugs etc I do have a lot of support. It’s my own struggles in my mind aa much I try talk to them about this niggling in my mind they don’t get it hence the reason I joined this group, hoping I could get advice talk read other people’s struggles to know I’m not alone.