Hello all,
You can call me C! I only recently(read “2 weeks ago”) began to really take this whole getting sober from porn idea seriously.
I didnt like how it made me feel after, it began to have issues in my marriage, and i started to go down a dark path, looking for some more and more depraved things.
Luckily, i caught myself, and came clean to my wife and those around me. I officially started to log this journey almost two weeks ago, and tonight, unfortunately, i repalpsed.
In relapsing, i noticed a few things. Some triggers. My brain rationalizing things until it became too much.
“Its not a relapse if its reading, i cant control if the book has sex scenes”
“Its not relapse if im just thoroughly cleaning myself”
Etc.
Anyway, I’m gonna use this thread as a journal. Document my journey, keep myself accountable, and maybe help some other 20 somethings along the way.
Feel free to ask questions, my therapist says i really should talk more about it openly.
