So I haven’t been posting out here and reading posts as much as I usually do. I was away for about two days and started to realize I was in a dark place. I’ve noticed that I tend to be present out here when I’m feeling good, then when my mood is not so good I isolate myself. I didn’t go to a meeting or call my sponsor during that time either.
I’ve come to realize how important staying connected really is. I like to close my posts by saying ‘stay strong and stay connected’ because I always thought that was important. Then I went and did the exact opposite! I was grumpy, irritable, snappy…all those negative feelings were just hanging on and wouldn’t quit! So I came out here and read a few of my posts and thought - don’t be a hypocrite! Off to meetings I went and I came back out here as well.
I am amazed at the difference going to meetings and connecting with all of you has made. I did have some thoughts about drinking when I disconnected myself. I now know I have to walk the talk!!
Thank you all for being here and helping me on this sober journey. I truly believe without my Higher Power and all of you that I would not be sober today.
Stay strong and stay connected!!