I went to goals, the + sign , named it lifetime and put 36600 days. About enough. After that we’ll see 
Wait…nah just that
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Hahaha thanks. Still can’t get the big stripe like you do. And my date is written under it. But I got the “next goal: Lifetime”, which is a legit goal considering how alcool affected my life in the past (and still this week because of my relapse - thank god it didn’t last more than 3 days). Not counting the days anymore. The only day that count is today. And today I won’t drink. And my goal is now to maintain this mindset for everyday. If my focus start to change, my goal is to see it and take action on it. Whatever it takes.
Thanks again !
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I am totally with you on this one !
Full on, Godspeed and to a good life!
P.S.
I set my counting time in years …maybe that
Brother, I tend to think in the same terms. One thing fighting has taught me is to keep my hands up. Drop the left, get hit with an overhand right or a hook. Drop the right, and eat a jab. Best way to protect my head, is to keep it bobbing and weaving. Footwork will get you out of punching range faster than you can block a punch.
Head, hands, feet…two of the three must be moving at all times. If I don’t keep my head right, keep my hands active, or my feet moving along the path, my opponent will catch me with my guard down.
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I think this is the road I was meant to take.
I was always looking at it and yearning for it from the other side. Never truly committed. Now I feel a change. More focused. Present. My life on the line.
With God’s help,trough physical and mental excercise I will forge myself anew into that evervigilant warrior.
As you said in a fight ,drop your guard and you will get hit, this opponent does not miss an opportunity.
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THIS. IS. EVERYTHING. Couldn’t have said it better.
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Thanks I know you guys are right.
I seriously feel that I still have the mental strength that I developed during those days of just not considering the idea of using - and if considered, easily pushed by a lot of rationalisation and/or by “not today anyways”.
But my relapse just made it clear to me that there is something wrong. It’s been more than a month that I feel depressive and questioning the sens of anything I do. My why is gone. That’s one reason I relapsed. But now i just remembered by experiencing it again that drinking would not lead me to anything helpful. I’m not gonna find myself by drinking; it’ll just drawn me away from myself.
I’m still working on my last paper for this semester, which is pretty hard seriously. So for now my “why” is to finish it before Christmas. I’m pretty sure time with family will helps after that. And some rest. But if I’m still feeling depressed after I’ll have to address this issue more directly because I don’t feel sane in this situation. Loneliness is rough on my mood. And unfortunately sobriety led me to more isolation. I know it don’t have to be this way, but that’s the way I took by engaging myself in a lot of lonely activities and hobbies (a lot of school, study, reading, writing, training for triathlon).
Anyways, I know I might be still affected by my relapse of last weekend, so I try to just relax for now and do my paper. We’ll see in a week or two how it goes.
Hi, how are you doing? Alcohol had such a lasting effect on my mood (even when I wasn’t drinking or hungover) and motivation that it made me isolate myself. That’s my “why” – taking back control of my life and having the energy to do things again.
I used to hate walking my dog and would lose my temper at her because I wanted so badly to go home and keep drinking. Now we love our walks together.
How’s the paper going?
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