I’m 284 days sober today. My daughter was diagnosed with cervical cancer June 12. I’ve been at my job for 90 days, and I’m not sure I’ll make it there. I’m almost 65, on my second marriage, and I have five siblings. I haven’t had a single day of no tears in the past 60 days. At this point, who cares if I get drunk. No one.
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I’d care 
And I bet a lot of people here would care.
And deep down you care a lot. Look how brave you are to come here and share all this shit with us. 284 days is no easy feat. You are amazing with those numbers and all the shit you are dealing with.
Do you really think drinking will make things better? You know the answer. I’m so sorry about your daughter diagnosis. I cannot imagine how that feels.
Just for today. Do not drink. That’s all I’m asking of you. Just for today. Don’t pick up. We are here for ya.
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So I’m also counting at least 5 negative or shitty things you have listed on your post.
Now go over to the gratitude thread and list 10 things you are GRATEFUL FOR.
Seriously. Right now. Get on that thread and come up with ten things you’re grateful for.
I’ll help you.
You can be grateful you got a daughter to love so much. You can be grateful a someone like me really does care if you get drunk. And has taken the time to answer you. You got a roof over your head? Be grateful for that. Keep going til you feel a bit better. I’m headed over there now because I need some gratitude today too. I been struggling a lot lately. But I ain’t going to drink. That’s not an option. But gratitude is 
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You know deep down drinking won’t help the end goal. It might feel good and dull the pain a tiny bit but you’ll still wake up to your issues, they won’t have left. Being sober can give you the determination to not give up and gives the clarity needed to deal with problems. Best of luck..
We all care about the drinking in this forum and the people it affects. We might not know each other intimately but we share a common issue….it’s why we stick together.
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I care. One of the reasons I finally totally stopped is my personal diagnoses. Today, there are more. Drinking can’t help me, nor would I be able to help others if I was drinking.
Lean in here. Lean into your worth - because it’s major. Know you are loved - especially on days it doesn’t feel like that. I am wayyyyy too aware of how it feels.
Much love, peace and strength. Glad you are here.
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You need to care. There’s a reason you have come this far, I’m assuming you had a big enough problem to stop. It doesn’t really matter who else cares about whether you drink or not, that’s on you alone.
No amount of drinking will take away your pain or sadness. Please stay strong. For you.
Good luck. 
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Ah, the allure of the pity pot!
Your daughter would care. Your coworkers would care. Your spouse would care. We would care.
It’s not unusual to have these attacks of self-pity, and to have them come wrapped up with “solution” that is poisonous to us. A counteraction you can take is to make a list of 5 things you are grateful for that would not be in your life if you were drinking.
And some days, even almost a year into it, all I could do was hold on for the end of the day. Just a few more hours until bedtime, and the chance to start fresh and at peace tomorrow.
In AA, we have a saying “Don’t drink even if your ass falls off. And if it does, put it in a bag and bring it and you to a meeting.” We don’t drink. No. Matter. What.
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I do care.
Drinking wouldn’t solve one single problem and your daughter needs you sober and clear.
Stay strong Laura. One day at a time.
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Hi Laura - I care!
You have a lot on your plate and I am so sorry for what you are juggling. Getting drunk will not help make any of it easier to deal with nor will it make it go away. It will for sure add to the stress and anxiety.
I am grateful that you came here to share. We are here for you. I love that @Dazercat mentioned Gratitude. YES - for sure practice gratefulness (I know that at times it can seem difficult to find) but it will help change your mindset and mood.
Keep connected friend. You are not alone.
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I care too! Don’t give up, keep fighting to be Alcohol Free. Drinking could possibly make things worse, it’s a slippery slope. I hope your okay, and people do care. We Do Recover 
How have you been doing Laura since you posted 2 days ago? Sending you positive vibes and virtual hugs your way
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Update: I did as recommended and made a gratitude list. Did not drink; still have not. Thank you all for helping me back up when I was so down! 
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This is a beautiful update! Keep showing up for yourself. Glad you were able to lean on the community and that it helped. 
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I’m glad you chose not to drink @Laura1961 and are here for another sober day with us . I’m sorry you are going through so much right now. It’s definitely a lot. Unfortunately sobriety doesn’t make the bad shit go away but it does mean you won’t be adding to the pile with humiliating actions and nasty hangovers. It also makes it possible for you to be more supportive of those around you who need it right now like your daughter. Keep taking it ODAAT .
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Your post totally made my day! I am sooo glad that u didnt drink 
Our minds are very powerful, so Im glad u did the gratitude list to alter ur thinking process. That always helps me tremendously too
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