Hey @19801
I’m good, no problem with alcohol. Only situation when I feel the need to drink is when I meet my friends which is not often, as I live abroad, far from my country. When I was drinking I was still going almost every month, but if I don’t go back to my home country, it will be easy to stay sober. So now I am planning not to go for sometime and working on myself and going to psychotherapy.
thank you for checking on me 
didn’t expect it.
How are you Corine?
I was concerned I was becoming an alcoholic in June 2020. I spoke to many people about it. I should have stopped then. It took nearly 4 years of active alcoholism before I finally hit a pit of despair and stopped for good. So much heartache I created for myself and others.
I wish I listened to my gut back then.
I knew I had a problem that was just getting started.
My point, listen to your gut. Nip the problem now. You’ll NEVER regret not drinking.
@Vanessa8 thank you for your reply 
it means a lot to hear every story from you guys and personal experience
I’m ok @Beba thank you for asking 
I’m at my mums in her warm flat tonight with a bath so I’m very grateful today
appreciate your efforts