Hi All 
Today iv decided to break up with all of my demons for good.They ruined my life.
Im 30yo male with gambling addiction and alcohol problems.
Iv started gambling when i was just 6yo,playing dominos with my grandmother for money ( really small amounts,but still gambling) as she would let me take all the money after the game,regardless if I won or lost. Sport betting at age 10, casino at 14.
Iv gambled all of my familly gold, stole money million times, making up debts so they give me more money…
To get long story short, I guess…
Im also very agressive drinker,heavy drinker,especially when it comes to drinking after recent Casino loss,falling into that suicidal wormhole once again,being angy and manipulative.
Fucked up all of my relationship because of that.Recent one 3 days ago with girl who really cared and tried to help me.
Currently in debt,and not feeling good,so decided Im finally gonna seek for some help,because it looks like i CANT DO IT BY MYSELF.
Welcome to the group my friend. Addiction is public enemy #1 here, the one thing we all battle. You’re right, we cannot face those demons alone. If you look around you’ll find threads with gambling addiction advice and support. We are all here for eachother, please feel free to reach out to anyone here. I wish you well
Welcome @Skillaz. I know it’s hard. I have family in recovery from gambling addiction too. It’s really, really hard.
It is doable though. One day at a time.
You’re wise to recognize that you need support. All of us do. Humans need communities, to support them in struggle, and to celebrate with them in joy.
Gamblers Anonymous is a useful tool for this. There are meetings all over the world. There are online meetings too (see the links on the menu / the sidebar - you’ll see different options for meetings):
https://www.gamblersanonymous.org/ga/addresses
Don’t give up. You can do this.
Thanks for replying…i need to learn how to put my ego aside and really open myself to accepting helping hand i guess…one day at the time,ill really try this time…God bless 
Hi@Matt , thanks for support.
Hope you doing well.
Yeah,its been really hard and destructive and that needs to stop Right now.
Ill make sure to check in frequently to stay focused.
ONE DAY AT THE TIME.
God bless