I’m embarrassed to write this but proud at the same time as I’m owning up to having a problem with drugs.
Today I have realised what an absolute twat I am and have been for getting addicted to drugs and I now deleted and blocked all numbers relating to this today.
I have had an addiction badly for the last month and the worse part is no one knows because it’s that easy to get now I don’t get seen or caught.
I have to get clean because else my world will fall apart.
My husband doesn’t know a thing but he has started getting suspicious because of money.
What advice can people give to help me the first few weeks ?
Welcome and well done for finally admitting to yourself you had a problem, and have become powerless over the gear. That’s a massive step.
I’m nearly 6 years clean and sober, I used AA to get sober, NA to get clean plus a sprinkling of amazingly wise wisdom from this forum.
What worked for me was not only getting honest with myself but with those around you. It’s great having outside support but it’s even greater to have the support of loved ones, especially at home or in your immediate surroundings.
The huge thing you have to do is get to the bottom of why you were trying to escape using drugs, the actual using part is only a small part of addiction the bigger part is figuring out why you felt like you needed to take them. It’s a journey. Sometimes hard, sometimes wonderful but that is life.
One day at a time and be kind to yourself. Rooting for you.
Hi Kay! Welcome to TS and most importantly hugs on wanting to do this life differently. There will never be a good reason for me, or you, to use/drink again. Only bad ones.
Like it was said previously, being 100% honest with ourselves and others is an important part of healing. We keep no secrets and we can live inside our own skin again. It really is freeing once we accept that this disease isn’t going away.
This app, AA/NA and anything else that is group centered is helpful. We don’t do this shit alone, if we could have, we would have… Again, so glad you’re here!
Hey great job for admitting and starting to fight against it.
Aside from the professional help or support from friends I’d recommend to keep yourself busy with any kind of fitness as well, whether it’s CrossFit or yoga, some physical activities can really help to manage your mood and burn off the restlessness that comes along with quitting.
You’ve taken the first step. Congratulations!! Admitting there is a problem can be very difficult, I definitely lied to myself for too long: I encourage you to find an outlet that allows you to explore your own emotions and express them - wether that is journaling, painting, music, etc. It can be helpful to get back in touch with yourself and your emotions. Personally, I used drugs and alcohol to hide from tough feelings and used them as an escape. Don’t be too hard on yourself when you’re exploring your feelings and the motivation for use. It took a long time for me to get into a routine of self care and I found that giving myself hugs, literal pats on the back, and telling myself “I love you” were really difficult and made me feel emotional. I had to explore that. When I went to a treatment facility, they had us write a goodbye letter to our drug of choice. That took some powerful soul searching as I explored my relationship with drugs and alcohol, what had kept us together for so long, and why I wanted to end the relationship. This may benefit you as well. Definitely find a meeting!! The recovery community can be your lifeline. This forum is also an amazing resource and is made up of some truly amazing people that can lend some strength.