I went back to NA today after a few weeks from not going. I relapsed after almost making it to 60 days and I felt a bit ashamed to go back after it because I’ve relapsed about 4 times since going. But I was so glad I went back today and I know by going there I’m in the right place. Talking to people and them understanding what I’m going through really makes such a difference.
I relapsed after a difficult few weeks after my partner lost his job but really I was just using it as an excuse. It wasn’t worth it breaking that trust again and making my family worried. I’ve started to get some proper therapy for what I went through where I can be honest about my addiction. As hard as it’s been it really has helped to talk to someone about the things in my life that turned me to drugs to numb how I was feeling which has been helping so much and has now resulted in less cravings than I had before which I’m happy with. I know I’m not out of the woods with it yet but I just need to keep going to the therapy and meetings and making better changes. I never want to touch that stuff again or try and make up an excuse to do it again. It made the last year miserable for me and it’s not something I want to repeat.
Anyway this was just a bit of an open post to get things off of my mind. Sending strength to anyone struggling with recovery at the moment.