I am just under 2 and a half years sober and just starting the divorce process, and by just starting I mean, 2 weeks ago I told my husband I didn’t love him or his ways anymore then I packed my shit moved out last week while he was at work.
I will say its been rough at times. There have been a few times I thought i could drink but then i realized that was the addiction talking because I know I absolutely can NOT have one drink and be good. I’d be lucky if i only did a one night binge. It would more then likely turn into a at least 6 month binge if i even quit there. Probably more and there is an honest chance i could drink myself to death.
I wanted the divorce so I’m not sad about that its just that my life is changing and I’m not always good with that and booze was always my crutch when i needed one.
You can’t start a new life going back to old habits.
i am 34 this is my 2nd divorce i have started while being sober. the difference this time i will continue to be sober through the whole process and forever after because that’s who i am now.
i am that sober happy unicorn that people love to hate.
i never have anything helpful to say sorry, but i can say that drinking didn’t make my first divorce go away or make it any easier. actually the opposite because i was to drunk and almost missed court.
booze isn’t your friend ice cream now that’s your friend. find some where you can go that has ice cream and tons of toppings and just go wild. that’s what i do when I’m feeling down, I won’t admit how many times I’ve gone since i realized i didn’t love my husband.
just do something for yourself that isn’t drinking that is all that matters.
I try to make things easier for the moment smoking crack to numb the pain within the thought for only a few seconds, to only hurt worser after the high is gone. I’m going to reset my sober time and then I’m going to focus on me. I can’t keep allowing someone that doesn’t care about me to cause me to not care about myself. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place.