First thing in the morning . Soon as I opened my eyes. This was my first thought.
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Glad you shared it here. 
You are not alone. We’ve all walked this road with you.
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I can relate. I also feel I’m totally alone, but luckily we have this TS where we can share our thoughts and not feel completely alone. Sending love and light.
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Hi and well done and thank you for the share.
Its a truly awful thought having an addictive behaviour whilst others don’t.
The thoughts you have are a kind of pre requisite in our world and therefore you are never alone in a community such as ours.
Firstly i can offer only a smile and some blind advice as i dont kbow the situation.
No doubt on reading this, a voice in your head will have said but my situation is different. To which I say it isnt. It all boils down to the same.
Recovery is about managing thoughts feelings and behaviours.
Those with addictive behaviours are awesome at negativity.
Try and change your thinking and turn the language around. In essence, dispute the irrational belief. Obviously your circumstances are unbeknownst regards your support network.
“I am all alone in this journey” - irrational belief.
Turn it to a question instead.
“Am i alone in this journey?”
Now you challenge this to find a rational belief.
“I have the support of my recovery groups where good things can happen.”
Try and find a solution..
“If i do ‘x’ then ‘y’ can help.
Be kind to yourself and challenge the unhelpful thinking patterns.
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Thank you all! I’ finally got up and more am about to eat and clean to try and keep busy. Thank you for the encouraging words!
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How are you doing now hun?
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As of now I feel better . Idk if it was because it was the first couple days but everyday getting better. I hope to find people on here more to speak with about certain things but I’m finally up and moving and not weeping around!
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That’s good to hear, the first few days are definitely super tough. I’m glad you’re up and about, I found it helped having distractions but I appreciate everyone is different. Try to keep coming back on here, knowing you’re not alone is priceless. Be kind to yourself and know you’re doing amazing 