Always have a designated driver or just drink safely at home. If you go out use uber or lift. There’s no excuse in today’s day and age. Best and most sure way to solve the problem? Abstinence. You’ll feel 10x better. Your grades and attitude will improve. Sobriety is grand in all ways. You don’t ever want to hurt or God forbid live with the guilt of killing a family or anyone for that matter. The pain and regret from that would destroy you and that person or persons family. Please take responsibility for your actions.
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My prayers and heart goes out to you both @Lilemm and @anon79808082. 
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I made a choice to drive after I had been drinking with a friend. He was in the passenger seat with me, also drunk and not wearing his seatbelt when I lost control and hit a tree.
I’m waiting to go to prison, but more importantly my friend is gone and it could have been avoided.
I don’t wish this pain or guilt on anyone… just don’t do it. Leave your car behind and please take a cab.
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I feel so sad for that heaviness and sadness you have; I can’t imagine Knives; I hope someday you can feel light again. 
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I’m thankful you made it home safe. I used to drink and drive almost every time I drank. Most of the time I would black out, not even making the conscious decision to drive, but I’d wake up the next day surprised to be home in my bed. It’s a scary, helpless feeling so I sympathize with you. Forgiveness comes when you stop doing it, I believe. For me, I can’t completely not drink and drive unless I’m completely sober. I eventually chose to just drink at home, which helped, but there were still those occassions I would get pissed and get behind the wheel. I always felt guilty when I did. I’m lucky I didn’t get into some serious trouble. So the point I’m trying to make is the guilt will stay there until you truly change your behavior. If that means no more drinking, than that’s what you need to do. Best of luck!
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Used to drink while driving 100% of the time
Being sober and being the driver for my friends helps with the guilt 
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I know the feeling bc I’ve done the same thing countless, with loved ones in the car with me and never got caught. I’m not proud, but working to maintain sobriety is the only thing that keeps me from putting myself in that situation.
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In my opinion, the best thing you can do with that guilt is to vow to not do it again and stick by it. If you still drink, make sure you have a couple ride share apps on your phone, the number to a taxi service, etc. You can come back for your car in the morning when you’re sober. Or maybe even take a ride share in the first place if you know you’ll be drinking. Talk to some friends before you go out about getting a ride with them if you know they’ll be able to drive. Before you go out drinking, make sure you arrange your life in such a way that you will not be getting behind a wheel.
Ideally, of course, you’d simply choose to sober up and then getting behind the wheel wouldn’t be a problem, but I don’t know where you are at in your journey. It’s difficult to communicate with your drunk self. The rationality isn’t there like it is when you don’t drink. All your good intentions now won’t save you when you’re wasted because in a way that person is someone else.
In the end, you need to forgive yourself, and to do that you might need to admit that you have a problem. You’re never going to forgive yourself if you continue doing it over and over; you’ll just feel guiltier and guiltier and it will pile up on your shoulders and crush you with the weight of it.
I feel your pain I really do
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I’m going through this atm I drunk drove at the weekend iv never done anything like this before I ended up hitting a parked car and a wall the guilt is eating me up mainly because I have to young children who need me, I have decided to get counselling and have joined AA I still feel bad though but hopefully that one mistake has started a positive future for me
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I never felt quilty about it until I ran a red light “at a high rate of speed” and T boned a Kia. I almost killed a good friend who was in my passenger seat, along with myself and an innocent women just out driving at 8pm on a Sunday night. I was .24 and spent the night in jail planning my suicide once I got out. Judge made my bond condition AA daily. I was at my first meeting 4 hours after I was released. Today I am 460 days sober. If youre blacking out and driving home you have 2 choices. Stop driving or stop drinking. Im sharing my story in the hopes it helps prevent you or anyone else feeling the way I felt that night. I dont wish that on anyone and thank God every day it wasnt worse. You dont reach your bottom until you stop digging.
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I share this guilt. I can’t get into the details but suffice to say I’ve made someone’s life more difficult because of my antics.
I was actually slightly relieved when they won a LARGE settlement.
I will carry the shame for the rest of my life.
The passive guilt —“ I feel bad about myself, and I’m still focused on myself” — has to be changed into something active, and focused on today and tomorrow: “I’m going to do whatever it takes so I never again risk other people’s lives by getting into car drunk”. Getting and staying sober has to be at the center of that journey.
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Hi there. How are things going for you now? Im so sorry for the loss.
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Hi! Thanks for checking in. The pain and the guilt never really goes away, but some days it feels tolerable. Still waiting for my prison sentence to be handed down. Still looking at 6.5 years.
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Hey do u wanna talk offline like on messenger?