Almost made it a year. Had a mini relapse thinking I could control it. Really fucking disappointed in myself.
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Well your back and acknowledging it. Don’t be to hard on yourself. You have the tools to be successful you can do it again. 
hope your day gets better.
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Ouch @PapaWheely…that sucks, but I know you know you cannot control it. Glad you are here and sober. Keep moving forward friend. Those days are not lost…build upon your knowledge. 
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just like to congratulate you on your sober days, you could have drunk every day but you didn’t so well done and back to the basics.
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You’re still doing ok; maybe write down what convinced you to test the waters and also how it didn’t work.
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That’s a good stretch of sober time, congratulations. The good news is now you know you can’t control it. It happens, happened to me too all you can do is get up and start again, learn from the mistake. Best wishes
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Oh boy. I’m so sorry. It goes to show you that we will never be safe from the pull.
I’m so glad you recognized this early. Relapses are hard to come back from. You’re here and that is huge.
So, what can you do differently this time? We’re you doing the work early and stopped when it got easier? Can you keep doing that work long term?
Hold your head high. You’re a good person.
YOU CAN DO IT!!
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Thanks guys. It was just a few drinks with friends. Didn’t get drunk but could feel myself slipping. I started slipping and letting people drink around me and started getting to comfortable and said fuck it. I’ll be fine just having a few. Totally wasn’t fine
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@SassyRocks wrote this this morning, and it really resonated with me; maybe because I’m older but it’s the absolute truth: “I had to learn the REALITY of drinking, not the FANSTASY of drinking…that helped a lot…to reframe it for what it truly IS (anxiety and shitshow inducing) not what we wish it was (fun and relaxing).”
Also just taking it completely out of the equation of living life; it’s a non issue. Put it in a category of things you would NEVER do and believe it. 
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Ive been there. I know the feeling. At least you didn’t black out or do something dumb. Or end up in the hospital or worse jail. All I tell myself is FALL SEVEN TIMES STAND UP 8. YOU CAN DO IT.
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We all fuck up sometimes but we gotta be strong my friend drinking doesn’t even cross my mind anymore
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Welcome back. You now know you need to be more careful around other drinkers. Take this as a learning experience and move on. All those days are not lost, just a bump in the road of a lifelong journey.
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AHH gutted for you,but you now try to get a understand of why you picked up and move forward to a better understanding of yourself 
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Thinking we’ve somehow “beat” it is such a trap of the mind. You had an amazing stretch and you’ll get there again. As long as you learned something from the experience then it wasn’t a waste.
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Hey @PapaWheely. Sorry to hear about your relapse. Your wording of “it was just a few drinks” is probably you feeling guilty and its ok just don’t beat yourself up about it. You can move on and succeed. I don’t know you personally but I believe in you. I know you can do it because I did it, because I believe in everyone. I had over a year and a half sobriety before I even thought about sober cabbing friends. I would google “urge surfing” its a pretty great technique that works for me. Honestly you can never let your guard down I still don’t even though ill have 4 years in August.
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Everything is going to be okay. You are here, you are worthy of trying again, you matter to us. You have such good experience of being sober, keep building on this @PapaWheely 
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A year is a long time! You got more than a year in you dust yourself off and do it again. 
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Never knock yourself when your already down fair play your back trying to get it sorted again should be well proud of yourself 
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Back on the horse its just takes a moment to lift that first drink especially in early sobriety, even after a few decades of continuous sobriety i realise that its only for today wish you well.
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