Gym selfies, weightlifting & fitness šŸ”„ (TW gym attire. Keep rules #6 and #7 in mind) (Part 1)

Wow!! Thank u sooo much for taking the time to write stuff out and explain about ur journey. Thatā€™s incredible!!! Uv obviously found what has worked for u! I appreciate the advice!
My journey was been up n down with my weight. Growing up I was healthy and slim and then as I grew up as a young adolescent I started gaining weight. Then with mental health at 15 I started using drugs. Once I got into harder drugs at 16 I became sooo unhealthyā€¦ very thin. At 21 I was introduced to 12 step meetings and I gained a whole 3 years of recovery but I also gained 100 lbs in 1 year due to switching addiction to food. After that 1 ā€‹year of eating I started working out at home and then eventually got the nerve to work out at a gymā€¦ which thru that, I got a job as a front desk worker for Shapes Fitness. I met many bodybuilders and exercisers who helped me with my fitness and weight lifting. I lost about 80lbs or so. It became an obsession tho. It was actually unhealthy. I worked out at least 2 hours a day, minimum 6 days a week (7 if I could). Iā€™d sometimes go twice a day. Iā€™d prep meals every week and count calories and macros. I developed an eating disorder due to having such a strict diet. I somehow got back into using drugs (hence my relapse at 3 years clean). Working out wasnā€™t about healthā€¦ it was filling a void and dealing with my emotions. I would work out and oush myself TOO much. Running injuries on my knees and id get super upset if I didnā€™t FEEL like my workout was good enough. Iā€™d over do it and honestly I donā€™t think I had full knowledge of lifting bcuz I was 180lbs in this pic and yesā€¦ Iā€™m slim but I have like no muscle definition. And the amount if work that I put into lifting weights was ridiculous lol I shoukdve out on muscle. It takes work for me to think of working out and eating in a different way now. Even today, my workout was not the greatest and it was eating at me. But I had no more time to workout, I had to go. So I have to deal with my thots. U know how addicts will chase a high trying to get that feelingā€¦ thatā€™s me with exerciseā€¦ I chase that strong, confident, good workout feeling. Iā€™m trying to remember that itā€™s progress not perfection. And I focus on consistency. I am about 50lbs overweight so my goal is to get healthy and fit and strong :slight_smile: this pic is much older and it was when I was at my ā€œhealthiestā€. I wonā€™t get back to that, nor do I really want to. I just want to feel good and be healthy and strong and have some definitely and muscle. Thank u SO much tho for helping and writing what u did! I learned alot!!

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I think I look a little stoned in this treadmill pic. Maybe because I was up at 5 to work and hit the gym after lol.

Gym high is way frigging better than drug highs, Iā€™m serious.

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Chest and triā€™s to close out the week. Tomorrow will end week 5 of a 12 week cut. I leveled out at last weekā€™s weigh-in but the Abs are poking through so Iā€™ll chock that up to muscle development as I have continued to attempt to maintain progressive overload. Re-evaluated my caloric intake and macro requirements and stayed the course. Hoping to be 1.5 lbs lighter tomorrow morning. Fingers crossed. Have a wonderful day, peeps.

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Total Beast. Delts are crazy.

Couldnā€™t agree more!!

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Soo true! I actually crave the gym high tho and try to chase that feeling lol if I donā€™t get there some days (cuz not all workouts are the same), I get upset lol u know ā€‹ur an addict when? Lolā€¦

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This is so true. Tbh I waited like five months before I felt adequately stable in my sobriety to go back to weight training because it had given me such a high before. It turned into an obsession, nutrition and calorie counting all included. I didnā€™t want to cross addictions and crash and burn on multiple fronts should I not be able to be consistent with the weights. Potentially endanger my sobriety.
It was a good strategy for me, I maintained sobriety and grew with the strength stuff.

I was super happy to read everyoneā€™s updates here btw! :purple_heart:

I was a bit shy to post but happy to report that after my long absence from training last autumn and despite recurrent specs of inactivity due to mental health hardships Iā€™m back to where I was with the weights and all numbers growing nicely again now. :fire:

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After my first CrossFit workout in a hot min. The assault bike is the devilā€¦ that is all

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Weighed in today at the completion of week 5 of my 12 week cut. Down 3.4 lbs for the week with a total current loss of 14.8 lbs. Iā€™m a bit ahead of my scheduled fat loss goal, but I have also maintained strength in all major exercises and even increased strength on some movements so Iā€™m not mad about the accelerated loss. Havenā€™t lost any muscle mass that Iā€™ve noticed. Doing my best to maintain discipline for 7 more weeks until I do a 4 week primer/maintenance phase before a summer bulk. Stay focused, friends.

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Ran the whole time!! I thought it would make me warmer :joy: Spoiler it did not

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Jenn ā€œKicking Assā€ Lastname! Thatā€™s awesome :clap: :raised_hands:

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Bodyweight squats and some real light benchingā€¦ Iā€™m on the rise :grinning:. My mental health takes a big shit dive when i canā€™t be in the gym.

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So nice to see you back there in your gym, Dan. Iā€™m familiar with the phoenix syndrome, crash and burn and rise again, mind and body. Wishing you some peaceful times in the good place now to recover from that. :purple_heart::weight_lifting_man:Us all.

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I didnā€™t know there was a name for it! Learn new things every day

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Lol I made that up sweetie. But by all means, it fills a void I think.

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Well shit. You got me over here thinking it was a technical term I never heard of. SMH :joy::joy:

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Legs on day 277. Get after it, friends!

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Super proud of myself for sticking with my new fitness routine. Worked out the last 4/5 days. Today was cardio and definitely a ā€œbut did you die?ā€ situation. But I pushed through. ā€¦and yep thatā€™s knee sweat :joy:

Happy sober Friday friends!! :muscle::fire:

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Excited for tonightā€™s workout. My ups delivery guy hates me now but our little local gym is always closed and the 20lb ones I have at home werenā€™t cutting it anymore

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Weighed in yesterday. Down exactly 1 lb from the previous week. At the halfway point of this cut Iā€™m down. 15.8 lbs. Weekly loss rate is substantially lower than before but now at a more sustainable rate. Expecting by the end of the 12 week cut to be down to 190-ish lbs which will total 25.6 lbs gone. Keep up the hard work everyone.

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