I had a dream that I was drinking. Not social drinking, getting drunk heavy drinking. In my dream I wondered why I was doing this. I was extremely disappointed in myself for doing it. I relived the waste of my 44 years of alcoholism in one night. I felt like I had a severe hangover when I first woke up. It was very disturbing but I was relieved when I realized that it was just as bad dream. Maybe this is what a relapse feels like. Not sure what propagated it, but it gave me further resolve to never drink again. Maybe it was “A Christmas Carol” event for this particular recovering alchoholic.
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I’m definitely familiar with drinking/using dreams! I still have one every now and then after over a year of sobriety. For me, the sinking feeling of shame or disappointment in myself for my choice to drink/use after I wake up from my drinking/using dreams is similar to the feeling of a relapse.
I sometimes think these types of dreams are my brain regurgitating a bit of my guilt/shame that’s been accumulated throughout my years of addiction.
Glad to here you’re going to use this experience to help stay sober! 
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Me too , I have had a few of these dreams so far and they are always heavy using and a sense of panic . Followed by waking up to feel so relieved that it wasn’t real .
Definitely gives you motivation to keep going with sobriety I feel but definitely can be disturbing at the time 
It is common unfortunately apparently it eases the longer you abstain .
You’re not alone
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