I have always drank for most circumstances; depression, anxiety, and basically anything you can name.
My company recently is now taking on a new contract and its great. We are a small business and contracts like this help us continue to grow.
I am realizing in the past when these opportunities arrived i would drink more heavily to calm the nerves of executing the product. Then wake up 3 weeks later and actually done a really good job. Somehow alcohol didnt effect my execution of work, even though it could easily have torn down my business due to unforeseen consequences.
I an trying meditation but the mind is racing. I am so eager to do a good job i am not allowing the brain to rest. I am no where close to drinking again, but i am aware of a weakness i have that i didnt know before.
If anyone else been through anything similar would love to hear comments. I have tried meditation and well yeah i need to try harder.
Thanks for sharing. I’ve been in similar situations before. I used to say to myself “it’s ok to drink to remember (success), or to drink to forget (failure), but never both”. Yeah well we all know how goes!
I’ve never found meditation particularly relaxing if I am already wound up. I find swimming or running both good to calm down. Something about the rhythmic and repetitive nature of both activities, plus expending that nervous energy. Nervous energy keeps us on our toes in pressure situations - it’s a good thing - but too much of a good thing can end up a negative so I run or swim it off!
Hope that helps and good luck closing your contract
I remember my first promotion sober. The old me used it as a great excuse to get drunk. I bought a good cigar and quietly enjoyed my success. Now, I invite family over and I cook a good meal for them.
There are many ways to celebrate. All better than getting drunk.
