Tired of being the forgotten one.
But when thinking about it, when was I ever the remembered one?
Battling this war within myself, who even knows the struggles I faced, when they didnt know I was struggling before this.
Feeling isolated.
In a cold room with nothing but my thoughts.
My heart aches through this.
Body trembles. Night sweats. Lot of doubt.
How do I overcome this rage?
Heyy. 
Gotta explain more my friend
What got you to this point in your life
A good structure to think about when you explain is
Experience
Streghth
Hope
If you do it in order it makes for a good beginning middle and end
What is your experience to get to this point
What are streghths you have that you use to cope from the experience
What do you hope for others
Also when you tell us your story, use good will
Try to help others understand your story and why your feeling this way and give us here your hope in what you would like from us hearing your story
Anger is a human emotion. It is a negative human emotion that brings lots of regret in my case
Just keep it cool and write here when your ready my friend
It’s hard to explain but most people didn’t even know i drank nightly. So I feel like my sobriety is just me against the world. I’m not really angry I’m just sick of the cravings. If they’d pass i think I’ll be alright. I drank 3 alcoholic drinks a night for the past 6 years.
Damn good hounestly
Ok so thats only a small piece of your experience which is plenty for now till your ready
What streghths do you have and/or learned you have that helped you survive for the past 6 years. Even having hope counts.
Wow! There’s a lot of deep, complex emotion in this. I’m so sorry that you’re experiencing this, and if I read it correctly, alone.
I’m glad you came here though. You’re not alone here.
My initial question is are you actively participating in meetings and or have a therapist you see regularly?
For the alcoholic cravings
Craving alcohol will pass and may become a simple thought you learn to say no to. Eventually, after a while, perhaps a long while, if you dont pick up you will not want alcohol.
Myself, now does not think alcohol has any survice in my life. I do not want it. Just like with the marijuana, i do hate it but i dont look at it likes its weak.
I hate alcohol and i hate pot but i totally do respect its power to keep fresh in my mind how disasterous it can be and cause.
Heyy @ICanAndWill
Work was good today. Tiering start, disaster middle, easy end though
It sucks that we’re the poor fools who can’t drink normally, doesn’t in? I’m 100 days in and today I was just feeling annoyed that I can’t have a glass of wine with dinner. You’re totally right, it’s a hidden battle. But. It is worth fighting. And there people here know that and are with you. The cravings will get easier. Hang in there. 
I keep distracting myself. I’m in college and a mom. Trying to focus on that.
I have a therapist
Yay! I’m so glad to hear it.
These are great things to explore with your therapist. Nevertheless, you certainly aren’t alone in feeling/thinking them. It seems to be part and parcel of the human experience.
Are you feeling any better today?
How old were you when you picked up the first substance your trying to quit. Only the one you want to quit.
And what would you say to yourself back then to help that inner younger self heal. You dont need to worry about saying put it down or dont pick up to your younger self at this moment, but when you picked up the substence your quitting, that first time, i believe you felt a escape from a certain emotion like i did
I picked up when i was 13. When i picked up i got hyper and social, kinda crazy. I was trying to escape lonliness, anger and extreme anxiety. I was super quiet at age 13. Like very very shy kid out of anxiousness. I was very alone in my mind.
I would say to my inner past self
that i was never alone and, me at the present time has got your back
Slightly better today. Ive been drinking on and off since 21. Now 32
Good! I’m glad you’re feeling slightly better. 11 years is a long time to be addicted to anything. It’s natural to struggle to get out of it. We all stumble and fall before we learn to maintain our balance and walk. We’re all here for you. Cheering you on as you make your steps, and picking you up if you stumble and fall. Sometimes it’s nice knowing you have got others in your corner, regardless. I know it does for me.