I was sitting here trying to do some painting. I had a trigger this morning, just a stressful event any person could go through. I started to get really angry and anxious, usually i would reach for the bottle. I handled it, its fixed. I just had to be patient ask for help and do my part. So as im sitting here i put on a song im jamming too lately. It makes me feel strong about being sober. Its a happy song… i start cryingand i cant make myself stop, because nothings really wrong, and before i realize it its a deep cry. I dont know why or where it came from i think maybe its how i got that feeling out, maybe its the lyrics… I dont know, but i realized how beautiful sobriety is for me… its working, i am feeling like me i think? Last time i was sober i was a kid, 17 years later maybe this is who i am? I didnt know 2 months ago, maybe i just thought thats who i was? I think my heart is healing my friends and i wish all the same for you 
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Yesssss! This is lovely. All the good, all the bad we are here and present for it. I am so happy for your healing heart. 
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What a great post, thank you for this and well done, im loving sobriety too and i never thought id say that xx
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Fantastic control of feelings and well done
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Wow, that’s really strong of you. I’m really proud of you! 
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Thanks everyone. Im coming up.on 60 days no alcohol, this sunday! I never thought id feel this way but i like the feeling of being sober. I like sleeping and food, when i would drink i wouldnt eat for 3 days sometimes. I just feel anxious lately about getting longer sober time.
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