I’m having a hard mental day. Normally I would go home after work and smoke. I know I’m going home to an empty house. My boyfriend will be at work until midnight. The shop I got my stuff from is less than 10 minutes away. I know I’m going to have those thoughts of making a quick stop, just so I can fog up my mind and forget about today. I’m having a really bad mental day…
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Welcome to Talking Sober Faith! In fact you’re having a very good mental day lady. You’re not going to the shop, you’re not going to smoke to just forget about life and everything. You have decided to stop doing that as it gets you nowhere, as using substances got none of us anywhere. Or we wouldn’t be here.
And instead you came here which is such a great move. The opposite of addiction is connection. You’re not alone. We’re in this together, and right here you can experience that connection and that togetherness. I’m very glad you’re here. You’re giving yourself every chance to make it Faith. Read around, learn, get to know the forum, get to know some of us, post, support, get supported. Very glad to have you aboard! Wishing you all success. 
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I’ve found for me… the shame/regret cycle after a relapse is tougher than fighting the urge. Call someone, go for a walk, read… something to get your mind refocused
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Welcome to the community Faith. These moments do suck but don’t last. We just got to find ways to stay preoccupied till they pass. Go home and do something for yourself…put on a good show or listen to music while you cook / bake 
… Maybe take a bath or do some light stretching? Put your wallet away in a place not easily accessible so you won’t be tempted to pop into the shop. Go for a walk (without your wallet).
Read around here…this place had been a great source of distraction for me.
Keep up the amazing work…it does get easier 
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