IDK why but it’s like Friday’s are the hardest day’s on the week for me something inside of me just wants to run outside & have a drink and get high so bad like it’s get high friday something keeps tell me it will be okay if I just go in get just one drink and I will be okay but deep down I know I’m lying to myself because never in my life have I just had 1 drink maybe 1 bottle but never 1 drink and then the drinking is not enough So after that I’m gonna need to get high then after I get high.I’m not gonna be able to go to sleep , so then i’m gonna need sleep and pills (crying) then I’m gonna wake up feeling bad wishing I would never spend the money wishing I would have just stayed in the house wishing I would never even took the walk, wishing I would of had more self-control, repeat in the same cycle over and over again.
Weekends are always hard at first. Sounds like you already know the outcome if you do get high and drink so dont do it. Find a good movie, eat some good food and enjoy the weekend.
Google search online marathon meetings if it is loneliness. Stay connected with people going through or who have been through it.
Hey there
You can make it, just one minute after another!
I know its hard. But you see all the bad consequences so clearly. Imagine yourself being a beautiful warrior, fighting a little angry dwarf who is getting angrier the stronger you are.
You can win this fight! We are having your back!
I know what you’re feeling, hun. Urges fucking suck!!! But I promise, as soon as you march through that feeling you will be SO PROUD of yourself. You’ll know that if you can get through this one, you can get through the next. Take one moment at a time.
Had no idea there was such a thing, seems interesting!
Thats because thats what we get used to. We get used to things and we just want to go continue it that way. Stay busy my friend. Thats what works for me. I just took up reading again, or coloring them really difficult adult coloring books. Find a nice new show to binge. Or take a walk in the beautiful fall air. Workout works to. If you can. Pray. Tall to someone anyone, a counselor or a friend that’s been where u are or one u trust. Just keep busy my friend. If u need to ever talk im an ear away!!! Good luck and good job. Im proud of you!!! 
welcome to the community!
it sounds like you’re playing the tape all the way through, thinking about the consequences of your actions.
good for you! with this mindset i think you will find the strength to stay sober/clean
Thank you for the kind message. 20 days today. I feel amazing!!
Fridays are the hardest for me too and when I have four days off work 
I was sober for 4 years and relapsed now I’m on day 7
Well congratulations again. You got this! I know the relapse phase all to well. Ive been through it many times. It gets super tough on the weekends for me because im not working. I just try to keep myself and my mind busy.
I’m 14 days tomorrow I feel good but my bf is a user , i use boundaries with him when he uses don’t come home cause it triggers me , today is a struggle but I’m working through it , I can do this I have 4 beautiful grand babies that need me
The longer you stick around the sooner you’ll find that not just the grand babies need you. Your story told to someone else going through what you went thru and stayed sober can keep them stay sober. When we work with others we don’t fully understand the impact on their sobriety we may be having by sharing what is going on with us. Your story may let someone else know they’re not alone. Have a blessed day.