It’s been one of those days, I just want to throw everything out the window. I’m having a hard time seeing why I’m clean and sober. I’m feeling, lonely, overwhelmed and angry the last few days. When I look at my two young boys I remember why but even today I’m having a hard time with that. I am wanting to drive to the store and get a fifth of whiskey sooooo bad. Just to be numb for a little while. I’ll have nine months in a couple weeks and this is really hard right now.
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Ahhh give a big hug the feeling will go away, just hold on a little longer.
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Thank you @Oliverjava. My oldest son is sick so we’ve been home all day and that didn’t help. I usually read, call someone or write in my journal. I did all of those and it kept me busy. I didn’t drink and I am so thankful for that! I have come to far to throw it all away. But I haven’t had an urge like that since I first quit drinking. I appreciate your kind helpful words!! I don’t know what I would do sometimes without this community!!
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@Ockie I have my husband a huge hug when he got home and he squeezed me right back! It was nice 
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Hi, my name is Susie, and I have been sober for over 9 years now. For me, whenever I feel overwhelmed, I find journaling helps. Sometimes I will only write a paragraph, but other times I can take up three pages! And lately I’ve been playing card games on my phone or my computer. I just try to keep busy. I also work part time, take care of my 16 year old daughter, and my older daughter and my grandbabies.
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When the monster addict in my brain rears it’s ugly head, I silence it by focusing on the solution…read a book on recovery, make lists of all kinds, eat a snack (I don’t crave so much when I have something in my belly).
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@Susie_Best55, I ended up journaling for a bit. That always seems to be helpful. Not being able to leave my house today made me feel trapped. My oldest is sick. So we played outside for a couple hours. I kept trying to distract myself the best I could. I had a few breakdowns but that’s to be expected. Thank you for the helpful feedback!!
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@Mamabee sorry but I know from past posts that you have gotten through so many challenging days. Today add another one to your belt! But keep working to build up your life and find healthy ways to be less isolated, socialize, and less lonely, it can really help.
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You’re right, I have gotten through some other challenging days. But it’s definitely been a while since one this bad. But I made it through it! Tomorrow is a new day and I’m going to make it a good one! I have been slowly making friends in AA. I honestly would like to attend more AA functions. I need to drag my butt out of the house more for sure!! Thank you for the feedback! It’s always appreciated!! @JohnSee
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Sorry I just saw your first post you wrote. I agree, I like journaling when I’m feeling down. It helps a lot!! I read some books today as well and it was helpful. It seemed when I felt like I was feeling better it would come right back. Today was odd. I can usually shake my cravings and get rid of that obsession but today my addiction was in my head doing push ups waiting for me to slip up. Tomorrow is a new day and I’m looking forward to it!! @Melrm
Over time, that addict brain won’t be so loud and the real you will call the shots. Be patience and keep walking
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Thank you!! Today just made me realize a lot of things. Really didn’t help on such a crappy day my husband decided to go to the bar… just made it suck that much more. So thank goodness the kids are in bed and I am too!!
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Thank you for these!! Thank you for your feedback. I love everything you post on here! Your words are real and uber helpful!!
Thanks @Mamabee I really appreciate that. I’m just like everyone else…doing this thing one day at a time. I don’t know about you, but love, compassion, kindness, and laughter helps more than anything. We’ve all beaten ourselves up enough…it’s time to start enjoying our new lifestyle and journey in sobriety. No, it will never be perfect and no its not always easy…but yes, we have eachother to get through it all…the good, the bad, and the ugly.
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