Sometimes it is just one of “those” days. I cant tell what is wrong today. It is just one of the hard days to get through.
I am starting in a new group therapy, and should be happy, like i am used to when i am going to a NA meeting. But today it is a little bit different. I have (still undiagnosed) PTSD, and i am feeling trapped, just like i did when i was kidnapped 2 years ago. So i am currently having s morning with a lot of flashback and anxiety and panick attacks, and dont know what to do about it.
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Starting something new can make us nervous and insecure. You are doing fine, a new therapy setting is a step in the right direction. Be kind to yourself, you are working on your recovery. Sending you hugs and strength 
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Talking about it here like you have seems like it could be helpful to you.
It is a struggle to accept myself and my actions today.
I am writing a diary everyday, and i can tell that my thoughts and actions have become a lot darker and selvdestructive. And i am starting to shut my feelings off. And then i know there is not a long time before a relapse is bound to happen. It is great that i got the new therapy today, otherwise i would have relapsed already.
So my promise to myself is to be clean and sober until the therapy.
Today is not a one day at a time Day. It is an hour by hour kind of deal with myself day.
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Have you ever had any advice about what to do during flashbacks? Could some grounding exercises help?
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Take it from minute to minute. Do something nice after therapy to reward and pamper yourself. Using is NOT rewarding and pampering. Something you like, that makes you feel comfortable. A walk and some icecream? (here it’s so warm again that icecream season already started!) maybe a bath and a book? do you excercise? a run or a visit to the gym are wonderful activities to accompany therapy. Whatever you do: Be kind to yourself. It’s ok that you feel depressed. It’s ok to be kind to yourself AND feeling low.
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Than you for taking the time to write. It is helping me a lot to get through this day. I am feeling very greatfull. You helped me staying sober and clean.
Thank you:heart:
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I know you said you feel nervous and scared, but to me, you sound incredibly brave. Starting a new therapy means facing darkness and uncertainty head on, and that would make anyone nervous. I hope it goes well for you and becomes something comforting.
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An update, i made it through a though day. And the therapy session was really helpful in my journey.
I am 20 kg lighter after this session and proud that i didn’t chicken out.
Thanks for you advice, and support.
Muffins is in the oven, for a special treat, after a successful day!
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That’s wonderful to hear! Muffins 
Have a good night’s sleep. You are so worth to hit the pillow sober 
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You got some solid support here today, that is good to see. Happy to hear your therapy helped.
I wanted to share this with you as well. It helps me a lot when I need to come back to myself…maybe it can help you in the future as well…
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