Welcome to TS @JessicaAnn93
Have a good read around, there is a lot of information and shared experience here. You can use the search function above (magnifying glass) to search for keywords, also in combination like coping and trauma. A lot of people struggle(ed) with similar issues, you are not alone.
There are also threads who help to cope with everyday’s life and living life on life terms like the daily check in thread, the meditation thread, the gratitude thread, the mental health thread and others.
As starting point for resources for recovery I can recommend this one Resources for our recovery
I’m thinking about this
Maybe re-evaluate if this therapy setting is suitable for you. Yes, therapy is not rainbows and unicorns but IMHO a therapy session should include work on triggers, especially if the session itself is triggering. Maybe there needs to be adjustment in the therapy aproach. Just my 2 cents.
Dig out what kept you sober for years and use it, one day at a time from minute to minute. Many babysteps get you far, you only have to keep going. Don’t forget to rest. We deal better with life when we are rested.
Sending you strength, ODAAT 