Heavy Realizations

Hi - I have a problem with cocaine and smoke weed habitually - I don’t think I have a problem with alcohol I can take it or leave it. My brothers both got sober - they are alcoholics and one of my brothers also had a cocaine problem. I’ve been in therapy for the past few months and have been doing well and recognizing my emotions and things that come up when I’m in my sessions. At the end of my session today I mentioned my moms drinking problem in the past and how holidays are always really hard because she would have a glass of wine and then two and then three in the whole bottle and it would barely be dinner time and she would be so drunk. I realize that my whole family is has addiction problems of some sort and I’m starting to think of myself as being like a person with a genetically disposed low immune system trying to fight off a cold or something like that. The tried and true plane revelation that I just had is really painful. It changes a lot with my therapy and even though it’s hard I’m glad I had the realization.

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I know how you feel. My dad was an alcoholic and drug addict. I got the alcoholic side and my brother has the drug addict side of it. I don’t do drugs but I binge drink at night. I’m here trying to stop the cycle. It’s hard, but noticing where the behaviors come from is always a good start. For a while now I’ve held a resentment against my dad for the gene, but then again he got it from his dad too and I know he couldn’t help it. He’s been sober for 15years now and I want to be sober too.

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The majority of both sides of my family are either alcoholics or addicts.

Knowing this, I saw in myself what I had witnessed growing up and knew I had a problem.

I wonder every day if I hadn’t had those previous experiences, if I would of realized I had a problem, let alone get any help for it.

Just had a chat with my eldest brother about it (he was the first one to admit he was an alcoholic and become sober) and admitted my problem with cocaine and he agrees that we have a family issue. It felt good to talk about

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