If I recall, there are a couple of phrases… Falling off the wagon, or wheels coming off the wagon…
The wheels did not come off, they kind of exploded. And I started and habits again. For about 18 months I went back to old ways.
But scary as it is, I have not had a drink for a couple of days. I cannot find my old login, so I apologise about the lack of history connected with this post. But I knew I needed to return here. I do not think I can do this alone.
On the plus side, I know that I will feel better soon, on the downside, I know how shi… Unpleasant things have to get first…
Welcome back Phil. Take good care of yourself. You have any (medical) support? Detoxing bij yourself can be dangerous. As you very probably know. Anyway, wishing you the best and hope to see more of you. Be well.
How are you doing today Phil?
Keep yourself hydrated and try to eat healthy food to nourish your body. It’s doing hard work to get rid of all the bad stuff. Rest while you can.
Like @tailee17 mentioned make a sober plan to get yourself prepaired for cravings and other difficult situations. This thread is a good read:
Welcome . None of us can do it alone. Coming on here and being able to read things I totally relate to, and know that whatever I say, other people will understand, is so comforting. Glad you are back, and ready to fight again.
So, update… Yes I am doing this by myself, although, my son is staying over this evening. So not entirely alone …
But other than a couple of really bad nights of sleep, I am ok.
Tired, but ok. Trying to drink juice and flavoured water, but I am also drinking a lot of fizzy drinks as well. But I can only deal with one thing at once…
I am about to play audible and try to sleep… Then tomorrow is just another day
Thank you all.for your support. I think I do need to find something like AA. Being alone was one of the reasons I picked up bad habits again. .
. None of us can do it alone. Coming on here and being able to read things I totally relate to, and know that whatever I say, other people will understand, is so comforting. Glad you are back, and ready to fight again. 
