I was 24 days sober today. I have been extremely strong but for some reason today I had enough. My dad drinks beer a lot so I went to the fridge and grabbed a beer without thinking about it too much and just started chugging… I let myself down but life itself is a letdown. I’ll restart tomorrow I guess. But I don’t even see the point in it anymore.
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Here’s a few reasons to stay sober.
.might help you to find the point in staying sober, for you at least.
I have figured a lot out about myself from my 17 days sober. I have had to test myself at one of the hardest times in my life and I would have NEVER dreamt that I would decide to quit drinking right now! But I am so glad that I have. Here are just a few things I have learned personally.
I have felt like I lost my "friend"
In the beginning I felt as though I had lost a friend of mine. Someone that I went to for everything good or bad in my life. I feel myself going through the stages of grief which is quite odd since alcohol isn’t a person at all! So strange.
My memory is returning.
I’ll admit I was getting a little worried there for a while before I quit drinking. I felt like my IQ was dropping at a rapid rate. It was difficult for me to put sentences together in a manor that made sense sometimes and I didn’t quite understand why. I am also recalling memories from early childhood that I had completely forgotten about… I hadn’t put the pieces of the puzzle together yet until a few days ago that it was the alcohol! Duh, it only makes sense that drinking poison would affect your brain function!
I laugh WAY more than I have in years!
I am not kidding you. I am laughing and smiling all of the time now which is strange because I am so beyond stressed out! I went to dinner with a friend today and I walked out of the restraunt feeling “high” or “drunk” in sense. She told me another friend of hers that got sober said the same thing to her when they went to dinner the other day. Must be the constant release of dopamine. Whatever it is, I am enjoying it!
Facing my pain head on.
This has been the biggest struggle. I knew it wouldn’t be easy to quit at this stage in my life (ending my 5 year relationship, moving home with my parents at 26, not being able to find a job…) but then that is also why I felt like it was so necessary to do this so that I could grow as a human being. I’m use to shoving my pain down with alcohol anytime I felt any and I think that caused me to be weak and not handle stressful situations very easily. Now that I am delving into my true feelings, fears and insecurities completely aware, I am getting an understanding of just how strong I really am and a clear understanding of the person I want to become.
Weight loss and staying on track.
Weight loss is a very big motivator for me at this point. Now it is easier to say no to alcohol once I saw the crazy results on my scale!! Drinking at least 3000 calories per week dedicated to getting drunk was a norm for me for many years. Cutting out the alcohol and being able to stay focused on clean eating has done amazing things for my waste line lately and I am excited to see the pounds keep coming off. In a way it is symbolic for me to shed the fat I accrued due to drinking and shedding the addiction and past life I had because of it.
I’m sorry my article is so long I have so much more but I’ll save it for another day. I just love everyones feedback! Please let me know things that you have learned on your journey as well! Namaste
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Yeah, I wrote that article…
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It’s freakin awesome. And I was just trying to be helpful:confused:
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I think looking back at the old posts you have written will be very helpful.We are all human not robots.We can’t just reprogram ourselves into ultimate sober machines .We always have a far more complicated story than that.
17 days is really good. I repeated 6 days a few times before I finally got past it.Im day 74 today…It even looked strange to me, and it will one day to you too.For trying to get sober 17 days is ALOT.
The thing about getting sober is that you will find that you enjoy things more …you get to learn about yourself, to notice the little things throughout the day, each day that you are sober you give yourself the opportunity to grow emotionally as well.
I have forgotten alot of my childhood too, and I felt pretty dumb when people bring it up…It feels made up.At least we can give ourselves the opportunity to remember what happens today.
Please, try again.
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Thank you! I actually made it 24 days and it wasn’t that hard. I will just start again!! Thank you guys for the support
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No I appreciated I I just didn’t know that you knew I wrote it! Thank you for the reminder from my old self!
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Every word you said = AWESOME
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Actually kaanddi wrote that 
Did you stop after one? Out of curiosity? Or did you spiral down?
@Noxamanda11 im convinced you’re a troll at this point lol. My name is Kayla Anderson hense kaande90@gmail.com.
I drank tonight and that’s the first time since then. My friend had a Halloween party but I’ll stop again.
Thank you! I still mean every word.
trolls Kayla mercilessly
Yah, no.I’m an addict who comes here for help.
Being called a troll kind of hurts my feeling…get it…singular use of the word…