At the beginning of my sober journey I remember casually saying things like " for a while I have lived in denial about my drinking" . Ok two hands up that I definately was living in a world of Denial folks!
Today Im so happy to announce how I now can walk right past the alcohol shop without feeling that heavy tug of war going on inside me. I thought I would come and share my goodbyes to that part of the old self I used to be.
Goodbye massive battle. No more invisible strings threaded into my hands and feet, no more bobbling over to the wine section to look for my favourite drop. No more airplay to the imaginary avatar puppet on a string who would still walk over to that winery section in my mind in the first 3 months of sobriety. Cya later to my weak old mind and body that would play those tricks on me .Bye Bye old me. I am no longer tied in bonds by the invisible ropes that would pull me over to the direction of that side of the street!
This is what liberation feels like to me, being able to say I no longer have that pull that alcohol addiction once had over me. Being in this place feels great.
Im saying all this out loud because it is helping me to be a better person, one who can celebrate myself .
Hello from the other side. I’m just over here changing the rules of my life , living sober life on my own terms , and I like it.
9 months deep , and still standing.
@Thori What a great post! 9 months is so incredible to me. I am on day 33 and it took a 13 day inpatient detox to break my habit after 20 years or so of steadily increasing alcohol addiction to reduce and ‘help’ with anxiety and depression etc… The longer I drank, the more I needed. In the last year I was passing out and blacking out at home (not really much of a social drinker funnily enough) and I would wake up with unexplained bruising or pain Insanity!
Celebrate the wins my friend!! You have done so well
Thankyou Susy , I’ve learnt that taking a moment to appreciate the effort we put in each day is good for healing. I know it’s still early days for me too. Being mindful of the steps we take along the way is a big key to staying on track. I’m done dwelling on the past, that was a hard track to come off too. I didn’t even pat myself on the back for that one but I’ve learnt now that it is important to acknowledge the progress we make along the way, sharing stuff on here is such a good outlet for that.