Im struggling really bad . I constantly feel like a piece of shit, like im never going to get clean. I keep relapsing and or self harming and i just dont know what to do anymore
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Im so sorry to hear your struggling. Can you create a safe space and get rid of any drugs or self harming tools so you dont have access?
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I have gotten rid of the drugs but its just so easily accessible in my town, like literally 2 minutes away. I also can’t get rid of everything in my house that I hurt myself with because not all of that is mine and some of the things are needed for cooking and such. Im at a loss.
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Can you take a walk outside? Nature calms my tortured soul
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I’m sorry you’re struggling so much. If it gets to be too much you can go to the hospital
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Hate to hear that you are struggling. Who is your support system? Are you involved in therapy or any type of meetings you can utilize?
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Meetings are only available here on Sunday nights. I don’t have any friends. My only support system is my grandmother and my cousin her both full-time working super busy people.
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I feel your pain.. it’s hard to beat those monsters, but you can do it. Try to search for online meetings, there are available for free 24/7: it’s something that has personally helped me in some moments. Hugs to you! 
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Have you tried virtual meetings?
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How are you doing since you posted last?
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Yes, checking in with you @Witchy to see how things are?
I know this Feeling.
5 days in Detox Hospital now.
Every time the Feeling to leave. Relapse Devil Talks, its Bad. Feeling Like crap 
Keep fighting 
you got the Power, even when you are in a awful mood.
Today i only found Peace in Church…
Tuesday next NA Meeting 
Only place where i feel excapted are the Meetings
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