Hello everyone. So I’ve had this app for over a year but never posted. I have been drinking since I was a teenager. I don’t know when it became a problem. I’m 42 and have a fiancé. He’s also a heavy drinker but when we have blowouts it’s always my fault. I was sober for a year and relapsed about 8 months ago. We are financially struggling, we own a business together, and also have a hard time communicating. I hold everything in and then drink and lash out. Two nights ago we had a major fight and this time he said he wants to have space and sleep in the guest room and work on himself alone. I’ve never gone through this and it feels so painful. The guilt and shame. I feel like I caused all of this and now I’m in a state of regret. Glad I found this app. I need to push myself to be a part of a community and not revert into wallowing in this depression. It’s definitely a pattern for me.
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Welcome. I hope you can find what you need and make steps in that direction.
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I’m here again too. I’ve always enjoyed this app but I still end up drinking and doing regrettable things while drunk. In addition to this app I believe I’ll have to start joining meetings. Welcome back 
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