Yes I’m trying again tomorrow. Well actually trying again now, 2 hours since last drink. Only 2 bottles today instead of 3. If I don’t have any tonight then by the time I get up tomorrow I will have 14/15 hours under my belt, just hoping something will click tomorrow and I’ll resist for the day
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Welcome to this forum. People are very supportive in this group. Congratulations on your one day sober. You are heading in the right direction. Do what you did to get one day sober and then you will have two days and so on. 
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Stay home. Stay safe and tomorrow will be another day, another chance to try this thing again 🩷
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Tomorrow is another day. I think Serena’s advice was great. Stay home, relax, sleep.
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Thank you to everyone who responded. The messages of encouragement brought me to tears. It is overwhelming to receive words of acceptance when I am sharing the worst part of myself. Today is day 2 and I haven’t drank. I found some happiness in little things today, some music, laughing at my kid’s jokes. I visited a family member and was offered wine, I turned it down. A little sense of pride sparkled through me. I have also reflected on how alcohol has affected me even when I’m not drinking. Emotions are overwhelming, I look for things to be angry or sad about. I haven’t been a supportive partner to my husband when he’s going through a difficult year, instead I have been resenting him for it. Without alcohol on my brain, the images of my worst behaviors are in blinding clarity. I desperately want to be a better person. I don’t know how I will feel about alcohol tomorrow or the next day or the next day, but I will take today as a win because I didn’t drink. Hope is good stuff.
To those of you who posted in this thread who are in early stages like me, I feel you and I see you. Almost every morning for the last 2 decades I have said “I won’t drink today” only to end up drinking later. It is like I am a different person each half of the day. We came to this forum for a reason, I am seeing it as an action and intention to build on. I’m squeezing your hand from across the digital plane
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Congrats on day 2 and you found some happiness. Nice 
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You’re doing it! One moment at a time. All we have to do is stay sober right now.
Well said! Onward. 
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This is me, almost every day… In the morning I know that I will not drink today, but - later the same day, the drink is in my hand. For now, third day sober.
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I hear that, different person each half of the day here too! Oddly, checking in here each morning and just reading a few posts is making that first half of me stronger, and the later half a little bit easier to reassure that I’ll get to another morning and another check in. Best of luck to you, lots of folks cheering for you here 
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Congratulations on making one of the most important steps in the rest of your life!
Know that you are absolutely NOT alone…your story is so close to mine…though I started earlier (teens), and finished later (50’s)…divorced once likely due to alcohol, remarried (now 23yrs)…but my drinking almost destroyed it several times, drinking during workdays (yep working remote…) -
re this: scary because I am going to have to face all the damage I’ve caused.
I have to tell you - First, just focus on today and YOU. Tomorrow, the same. Keep doing that - don’t drink. Each day you will be amazed how different you will feel - clarity, worry going away…
And ‘facing all the damage you’ve caused’? One thing that will be completely enlightening to you - your husband will be overjoyed!! The past is the past, you can’t change that - what you can change is the future and yourself.
I’m 2 yrs sober and its the best thing I’ve ever done for myself and for my marriage.
One day at a time as they say - seriously though, just focus on the day and getting through it. The first week is tough but it gets easier. I promise you your husband will love you for this.
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You’re two days ahead of me! Keep going!!
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Wow! This is my story to a T. Except I started in middle school and stopped this year, at 44. I was usually a happy drunk that fought in the morning because I was hammered and not making sense the night before. Our health, relationships and jobs are so much more important. I must say that I as finally ready to quit. You have to ne ready. You sound ready. I do have the occasional want when I’m having a bad day but I drink an NA and know that one isnt worth it and 10 will be bad. NA beers are actually not bad! Lol
Congratulations! You can do this!!
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Hi,
I can relate to every line you have written…I’m 3 weeks in, today was a good day. Cravings have been playing hell but I’m home and staying put. It must be very tempting to start early when working from home, I’m sure your not alone there. Best of luck with your journey.
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