So last night I got absolutely hammered and came home at 4 this morning and laid into my other half - not physically, but it upset her to the point of her nearly walking out. I was apparently vile and like I was possessed. I can barely remember any of it, I wasn’t in the driver’s seat by that point.
I’ve changed my drinking habits over the last couple of year and was doing ok, but have slipped back into my old ways and it clearly isn’t working. This is the final straw. I was one step away from completely ruining my life. I feel absolutely horrific, both mentally and physically. Enough is enough
Welcome Jim. Glad you found us.
It’s a progressive disease.
It keeps getting worse.
Step 1 We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable."
It’s never too late.
Have a good read around. Join in when you’re comfortable. We all have the ability to change our attitudes toward this deadly disease.
You will find lots of encouragement and support and hope here.
I suggest rehab, and never drinking again. With what i read, you have the signs of alcoholism. If not hit as many A A. Meetings as you can. You don’t want to lose what you have.
Brother. I (and pretty much everyone here) has been in exactly this very situation.
No doubt you feel remorse, regret, guilt…all that good stuff. You have a drinking problem. Might even be an alcoholic. But regardless…you don’t appear to have the capability to dig yourself out. Sure, you might moderate a bit here…abstain a bit there…but it always comes back doesn’t it? Prob getting worse and worse am I right?
I am almost 7 months sober. The only thing that has worked for me (and I’m 50 now ) is AA.
My advice…find your nearest meeting and go. Then find another one and go again. Repeat, repeat, repeat…bring your feet and the heart&mind will follow. But be careful, you might actually start to get better and your life will improve.
Thanks for the replies. I’m gonna hang around on here and read for a bit I think. Try and formulate a plan. I don’t know if I’m comfortable with the idea of going to a meeting or not…I obviously need to change things up a bit, because I’ve been here before.
I tried a few meetings but they weren’t for me. This community, books & podcasts about addiction, and some close friends helped me get to my 11 months (so far - but one day at a time).
It’s going to be hard work, but it’s worth it. And we’re right here with you.
) is AA.