So I decided to look for an app to help me on my journey. There were quite a few. I picked one blindly and wow! I am so impressed. I thought it was just going to help me count days and spew motivational quotes. This is so much more! So grateful that I found TS.
I never considered myself an alcoholic until a few people recently said I drank a lot. I knew it deep down but I didn’t realise others were watching me. Also, my son started giving me glasses of wine instead of cups of tea in the evening. I feel ashamed. Now looking back I can see clearly what was happening. Embarrassing. I am so embarrassed I cringe at some of those moments. I just never knew when to stop and even drank a bottle of wine per night alone at times! Then I had to scramble for work in the mornings. I bought a house that needs renovating. Needless to say I haven’t started the renovations.
My partner has a huge wine cellar. I live with him half the time and he asks me to choose the wine for lunch, dinner etc. I haven’t seen him since I have decided to become sober. 2 days. He’s travelling for work. I know he won’t appreciate me becoming sober. He had a fit when I mentioned it once before when I thought about becoming a teetotaler. He said he bought cases of my favourite wines and what would he do with them for God’s sake. I would love him to be supportive of me. I don’t know how I am going to fare with wine and champagne all around me when I go on Friday. And we have invitations to 2 parties on the weekend. It is Wednesday today and I have to deal with today first.
Any advice at all would be beneficial. Thank you for reading such a long post.