My name is Chandler. I’m 30, but my birthday is December 1, so almost 31!
I will always be a recovering addict, and my sobriety date is May 10, 2022.
My choice was cocaine and alcohol.
I started using at age 20. I worked in the nightclub scene. I was engaged to a wonderful young man. At first the addiction seemed manageable. I was an alcoholic who used cocaine.
I got involved with a man twice my age. He was a hardcore user. I was engaged and left my fiancé to be with this other man twice my age. I had the huge satisfaction of raising his daughter who was half my age and more of a sister, we are still very close friends.
But this man ruined my life. I ruined my life. I was pretty well known in my field of work. I worked incredibly hard to get to where I got to. But I used every night for 9 years. The whole time I was with him, and I used and 2 years after.
I was sex trafficked December 2 - December 24 2020 because I couldn’t afford my addiction anymore. That experience changed me forever. I ran for my life with the 30 second window I had…
I was homeless after that. Living on a street bench but I was still using cocaine. Not even drinking anymore. I just needed cocaine.
I overdosed April 2021 and I don’t remember the date, nor do I try to remember. I have no idea how I lived. The amount of drugs I did in a 24 hour period should of killed anyone… I was purple. And 70 something degrees. I’m was also alone with my dog and cat.
It took me almost a year after that incident to still, get clean.
I wanted to be clean before may 17, in 2022.
The young girl I raised was going to be 17 and she always meant the world to me. She was that little spark for living. I managed to quit for a day. And then her birthday came around and it had been a week. I decided I can’t quit now.
I have now been sober and clean since May 10, 2022.
