So I had to vacate from my place and although I though I would feel more hurt it’s honestly the best thing that could of happened because my place had bad gas leaks ; that I couldn’t smell and multiple problems that stressed me out and generally overall that place made me sad being on basically basement floor level 
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The main update is now that I’m living with a friend I was allowed to decorate the room I’m staying in however I please which truly makes me feel more at home, and I started writing poetry again my first love as a child 🫶🏿 and of course I’m still sober and my mind feels clearer in a new space and gives me hope that my higher power knows exactly where I need to be.