It’s always amazing how I think I’ve hit rock bottom and yet I continue to fall farther. If I didn’t live in the US I’d have checked myself into a psych ward by now. But I absolutely cannot afford that. I haven’t self harmed or taken any actions to harm myself. I just can’t function and I’m having to walk away from work every hour or so to let a wave of anxiety pass. I’m not eating. I’m barely sleeping. I can’t keep doing this for much longer. It’s already destroying my new job and I’m only 5 days in
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The anxiety will lessen. Have you tried taking anything to help with the anxiety? I know it affects everyone differently but cbd without thc can help or natur made vitamins has a formula for anxiety.
I’m on antidepressants and antianxiety meds, but I’m currently weaning off of them in order to start a new prescription. I won’t start that until July 9th.
I am not 21 yet and my parents and extremely strict so as much as I’d love to give THC and/or CBD a try, I have to wait until I move out. (Which hopefully is within the next year)
I can relate. I would have gone to treatment/or a therapist by now, but I cannot afford either. I also live in the US.
I hope you feel better…know you are not alone. This group is amazing and extremely helpful. Read, post and comment when you are struggling. It’s helped me. Hugs
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Thank you❤️
So sorry, that sounds so tough. It is interesting that you have to come off a medication before starting another as that seems like you are going to feel so much worse for now. I am sure I have always been able to transfer across.
You have been through so much and are still so young, it seems so unfair for you. Sending strength, although to have survived all you have, you are showing you are already so strong.
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Yeah it is odd. I haven’t changed meds probably since about 15 or 16 so I really don’t remember if I had to wean off before. I just have to somehow keep myself safe for now
In younger people they usually like to clear the system first. I have a son with severe behavior issues and everytime his meds are changed he has to “clear” his system before starting the new ones
That makes sense but my god it is miserable
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That is really interesting. There must be some solid reasoning behind it so wouldn’t question it. I just remember how hard it was when young, and the hormones. To place the added strain of coming off medication would be a lot to endure.
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I believe you. I know in my son we brace for a week or two of our house being torn apart and things being destroyed.
Hearing “I believe you” is such a nice thing I didn’t know I needed to hear/read. Never had the issue of people not believing here but my family is constantly saying I’m exaggerating and just want attention. Thank you
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Like another person said to just come here when feeling overwhelmed. There is always someone here that will talk through things with you. Other people don’t always understand.
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Thanks for that, I can very much relate to that. Thought I had many rock bottoms, the next one deeper than the previous one (following the progressive nature of addiction). Now I realize the only real rock bottom is the one that made me realize I had to take responsibility of my own actions. Sober ever since, although it took 4 treatments to realize that.
Try to put you’re recovery on the first place. I understand you’re in a hard spot doing so. It might sound harsh, but everything you put in front of your recovery you’ll loose eventually. That’s from what a therapist once told me. Took me time to realize that was what I was experiencing for decades 
All the best
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I’ve heard “the good thing about rock bottom is the only way to go is up” but it seems like I’ve got a shovel that keeps digging sometimes. I have had times where rock bottom has pushed me to get better. I suppose I just have to make that push myself
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But you don’t have to do it alone. Did you investigate all possible ways to get treatment. I don’t know in which country you live? Of course there always AA that might work, but what I read you really need some help with detoxing and some impatient treatment. I don’t wanna fill it in, but correct me if I’m wrong.
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I live in the US. I’m not addicted to any substances, but addicted to self harm and have an eating disorder. With the state I’m in right now I need to check myself to some psych unit but that would put me in so much debt and I can’t take time off work right now. I just have to deal with it on my own. I’m in therapy but it isn’t doing much any more
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Thanks for clarifying, hopefully somebody else might still now a good suggestion. Of course this place is also great to vent and get support and connect with people who do understand. Please don’t hesitate to do so if you feel the need.
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