First holiday season completely sober, in a big cityh with no family and no true ride or die sober friends that one would consider family, dont want to be alone but dont wanna be around people for extended periods of time…want that significant other/family type holiday setting but am to affraid of failing at it that i dont even start pursuing the idea…hello…911 operator…id like to make a report of a “failure mcfailure” on myself!!!
Not a failure; you’re figuring out where and how to try for what you want - and you clearly know what you don’t want, and that’s huge!!
I enjoy going to sports meet ups (running groups are my sport of choice) - and you can do the activity as involved or not in the group; but it gets me out and around people, and who knows - maybe you will click with someone!