I’ve been working on my sobriety since 2019 (and indirectly for several years before that). If we’re counting my current uninterrupted days of sobriety, I’m at 23 days. These days feel different though. I feel I’ve reached a deeper understanding; I’m more purposeful and confident about my decision to say no.
The decision to say no: that’s really the decision that turns things around, I think.
Are you at the point where you’ve decided, really decided, to say no? You may be unsure at the moment - that is normal for many people! - but to get some confidence, commitment, you should ask yourself, what are you giving up by giving away alcohol? By no longer running to it to numb you?
I’ll tell you: at first it will be intense rollercoaster emotions. In the early days it is like that because the feelings you’ve been numbing for years come pouring forth. Stay committed though and have faith. It will pass as you face the emotions, one at a time, and gradually you’ll get more stable.
And remember the list of benefits from quitting. Sassy has a good list here (scroll down a bit to get to the list):
Don’t give up Maggie. You are a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life. 